〚 ɕııɴɐпx 〛

都是　因为你。

2010-09-17T13:53:00.000+08:00

我从不过问你的伤心事
其实我也不想知道　因为
我在乎我们的未来。　
未来？哦其实我不配这样说。
有时候我还在想　你给的是不是爱。
我一向对爱情认真　
可是一次又一次的受伤。
我真的很害怕失去你
因为我懂得珍惜。

我只想好好的爱你
就一次。

Hey.

2010-08-31T02:28:00.000+08:00

You know, i just dislike you. I've got no clue why but from the day we met, i fucking hate you attention seeker.
You're like a desperate shitass with a god damned physical appearance, summarized as a bitch if you have no idea what am I talking about.
I'm just so pissed off with ur actions, you're like a never grown up kid with a small ostrich brain. Excuse me, look into the mirror please. Anyway, I DETEST YOU TO THE MAX.
Don't say I'm jealous of you for scolding you like that, I can't see any part of you that could make me feel jealous and envy about. Cry me a river bitch.

Hello back.

2010-08-22T19:16:00.000+08:00

(Clouds of dusts flew into the air, *stifled a sneeze*) I'm back blogging, -_- for once pfft.
Life's filled with everything I need or even more that that right now, which makes me very lazy to blog. Okay, extremely.

I felt fucking stupid to say " Cry a river,build a bridge and get over it " and as time passes so fast when I couldn't even chase it, I finally knew I am now smart to say that ^_^
What is posibble is subjective, some would say I cant get myself to study. Yet I do, ~~don't.~~

Real lame picture to decorate my new post, ugh.

Hello, i love you. You know you love me too :O

无奈得很。

2010-06-20T19:58:00.001+08:00

为什么突然变成这样。
人、就是那么的善变？
可以变得那么快
我终于看透了你的内心。
我从来不知你要的是什么
不知道你在想什么
我很迁就你
我在乎你，可是并不知道你有没有。
我知道，你有很多暧昧对象
但我却不知道，我也是不是你暧昧的对象之一。
我已迁就、一直迁就。
我没有勇气说出我的感受。
我的确习惯了有你的存在。
习惯你每天早上的一封温暖又甜蜜的信息。
习惯你的关怀。
习惯了你叫我喝水、冲凉等。
习惯你的爱。
我以为开开心心的日子不会被打断。
谁知道……

Wtf

2010-06-19T22:57:00.001+08:00

Shit. I really miss my __________
! !

可笑。

2010-06-17T03:11:00.001+08:00

把超经典的照片ＰＯ了上来
笑死我　
没改过的呐｀
心情烂透了
讨厌死我
所以我说啊
很可笑
友情｀我不再相信
以前很笨
、很傻
现在的我
先顾自己总好比以前的我好
我变得更自私、是为了自己好
怎么了
有了这种思想
就会令人讨厌
可是我说啊、
每个人都是一样
依然……
依然那么的

犯贱。
人往往会变
就是看、
变成什么样。
你看，我又说起废话来。
ｂｉｂｕｂｉｂｕｂｉｂｕｕｕ　

人生大大大道理哟，快来看看 ♥

2010-06-15T18:58:00.000+08:00

每次都是这个样子
你们有没有当过我是你们的朋友
难道朋友都没有都不是
我付出的也并不少
用真心对待
换来的就是这些
有没有尊重过我
有没有想过
我也是有感受
我也会伤心
我学会了
我什么都不说什么都不做了
友情？没有价值
友情，我呸
生性啦要会想啦
什么是好的
什么不好
我会分
别怪我
我是那么的讨人厌
总比贪新厌旧好些

所以啊
人就是那么的犯贱
哈哈哈笑死我（¯﹃¯）口水

OH NO.

2010-06-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

Shit.
Isit a YES or NO.
SHIT !!
My brain is gona explode right now before I can sort it out !!
Can anyone help me !
I need an exact answer for this.
But, I'd still think about the consequences.
Will i regret ?
I don't know! I'm confused, puzzled!
Anyone can give me a clue ?
I'm waiting !
I need an answer, for instance !
I'm so dead.
Ask myself,
a. Short-term happiness ?
b. Nicer and better next time ?
c. How will people feel ?
OMG. OMFG.
I didn't know everything would be such a shit freaking me out of nowhere.
I need someone right now !
Someone expert in counseling !

2010-06-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

做每件事情之前，又想过我感受没？
说每句话之前，又有想过我的感受？
你们把我当成什么了...

试着在你们面前笑得灿烂
内心痛着，哭了

就不能真心地对待每件事，朋友？
为什么这样？

我把你们当我生命重要的一部分
你们却没有

你们只会责怪
有没有听过我要给的解释？

I have feelings too.
Why would everyone just do this to me.
What do you guys treat me as?
A puppet? A toy?
Rubbish. I've already tolerated for a long time.
One day,
i will explode.
Humans can change really fast.
I will not ever miss the last time.
I will only look into the future.
No matter how we've gone through,
how hard times we had,
how enjoy we were.
i don't fucking give a damn anymore.
Shedding my tears for rubbish in my life, nonsense.
Life still goes on.

还以为家人比一切好，其实也没差

傻婆啊你 `

2010-05-22T03:01:00.001+08:00

不喜欢我的人，对我有意见的人

请麻烦滚开，谢你-

我有自己的风格不需要你来批评

我的风格和作风和你没关，你更加没资格批评

我自己开心就好

嘿嘿`我又来啦　^喜欢上面那张照~
怎么这打字的格奇怪到` 打不到字的，要慢慢一个一个打
娘的`相信那些有看我FB的人应该知道前几天心情真的有够烂..
还蛮倒霉的说` == 极度炸到`
我竟然可以把电话留在学校` 而且那天是520啊
本来心情好好的` 校车走了不久才发现电话没带回家`
够力的咯，害到我担心得半死`
好才有~~~的安慰`陪我ｍｓｎ没得信息真惨
要死掉似的`
考试要到了哦`
我还没准备` 怎么好像么感觉到有考试feel~奇怪
所以不想读啊` 可是还是要读一点
我不想进别班` 想和我一般宝贝在一起..
恶到 xD 没有`真的吗
对咯，之前不是很多事发生达`现在我们全部都在努力着回到以前那样，
所以...加油咯` 也.

喜欢也～

我最近是有够倒霉`昨天还跟某人说我想去庙转转运
哪里知道她竟然问回我说要不要哦
做么不要`我不要在倒霉下去
我会疯` 娘啊
哦对`看来呀明天只有一点时间读书
因为噢也我舅要结婚了`所以大家都在忙他的事
明天和拜日会很忙
怎么抽出时间读书?
我死定了喂 T^T 唉~
怎样怎样? 烦死人啊
阿队`真的是言枉

是疯狂的咯!

有帅到啦好没` 啊哈

我爱秀眼袋！哇哈

爱告诉我自己只懂得埋怨`

2010-05-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

有时候，想得到的`

偏偏就没办法得到，越想拥有的

却离我们更远...更远.

有时候，只懂得埋怨`

为什么，只能坐下来问自己...

问题到底出现在哪?

对呀，我有什么资格..

我只不过是你生命里的一小部分，

又怎么能和她们比?

我又有什么权力说想得到什么的?

我好傻...

傻得，无言.

傻得会想怎么做，才能让你觉得，我重要...

不，不.我错了`

其实，

真的不想这样，

不想这样的糟蹋自己，

也许我低估了你..

也许本来就不应该...不应该那么傻`

________________♥

hello.

2010-05-10T23:39:00.001+08:00

Hello, it's been a long time since I updated with english! I am so cool.

Okay. School was so boring. I am so bored rushing my projects and homeworks. I regretted not doing them at first, now everything became PILES AND PILES AND MORE PILES!
I can die now hello, what the fuck.
Fortunately I have this broadband with me. If not, there will be no entertainment for me already, shit. Astro is the one and only exception. But FYI i am so not into movies, thanks.

Okay I finally went piercing after 15 years. So cool right. I thought i was gonna pain to death. But I ended up laughing wtfbbq right. I am so fucking lame okay. So, as the very "brightful" decision, I fell in love with piercing.
Conclusion : I want more piercings hello.
Watched IPMAN2 and Ice kacang puppy love, so cool and nice.

So damn cool okeh brother!
Took this while i was walking to the bus stop with Shaun.

Hello, celebrated Mama's day with mama at Pav. Lunched and shopped together.
OH AND!
I wanna talk about a teacher in our school. It's counted as straightforward like this. I can be more straightforward, make sure you never step my tail one more time.
Eh hello, you said our class otak pandai hati bodoh?
Joker okay. Don't say till like your class very good.
Not happy just come and talk to us, no need to talk bad about us in front of your class and ask them to keep
it a secret. What now? Act friendly?
I tolerated you very long already.
Don't make my blood boil I pot you 99.
Ask your class dun mix with my class de girls?
Shit you.

I wanna expose a picture,
I knew someone, and I am so happy :)
We r very much fated :D

hehehe ;)
I am happy now, signing off liaww. 米修米修`
BBbbbbb mwaks`

思念是一种病`♥

2010-04-28T23:54:00.005+08:00

( This part i deleted due to the stupidity of mine. One word, rubbish )

♥ 我会奋不顾身地去爱你，吗？

- 今天又是闷死我`在学校又是累到！昨晚比较迟睡。拍了班照，我不要坐前面的，被他们逼的咯。可怜的我。
言枉`
我怎样说都好，说到口水干掉，还是要坐前面。
坐来干嘛的哦，哟！
真是给们炸到叻` 还有还有，其他班的开心照啊，全都是拍到好像很开心酱，我们的叻...总之无言啦！啊哟。

我不要写了。
本来想upload一些照`可是又懒惰喔 >.<
好啦。
很迟了。
饶了我，好想睡。

再见啊晚安`
阿让，希望你心情好一些` 不要在伤心，日子还是得过的。
拜。

他妈的！`

2010-04-26T20:16:00.002+08:00

本来说好不想在部落格里说那些有的没的。
可是今天真的弄得我好像火山爆发一样。

对`我自己知道我有错，我也想要去改变。
可是你需不需要一次又一次的背叛我？

我好欺负？如果是以前的我，也不会这样就算。
得罪我的人？你没有好日子过。

可是，现在觉得。那只会弄到自己很可笑。
你在我面前，装作那无辜，又善良的样。
装作一心一意想要帮我，可是我没在的时候，
却在我背后，自己做了什么，自己知。

“这样的朋友你还要？” 你就这样问我的好友吗？
想帮我？很很可笑叻你。

我们俩好回了，心很不甘愿哦？很不爽？
哈哈，不好意思 >.<' 让你失望`

我不好，我自己知道就好。我朋友们知道也好，不需要你操心。
那你又好到哪里去？言枉哟可怜到你酱？
需不需要用卑鄙的手段？

阿队~笑死我。知道自己经没什么朋友，自己反省反省。
我不要我们说那么明白吧。
你脸皮厚，不要紧啦阿拉~

本来是不想污染我的部落格，
看来，我写得一点都没错。
对呀~全都是事实。
别拿以前的事出来说，其实我是不想讨厌你。

竟然你说过，你没把我当好朋友看待过。
没关系，我有就行了。
我也没有要什么样的回报。

其实，还蛮可怜你一下的`
唔好同我玩啦，唔好整都我火兰滚。
有胆试试梯咯。

我唔想再浪费时间。
我只係觉得你非常可笑！
呢种人啊~ 哈哈哈哈哈！

你们不需要来问我是谁。读着的你，我相信你已心知肚明。我不需要多说。
浪费口水，明知故问，只是多此一举的行为。
Ok`since there are so many people who support me for this post.
Yup, my mission is completed. :)

朋友说了一句啦，我也认同
“那些糟蹋你的人，在他們的眼裡你要更加瀟灑快活走下去”
就是啊，人生短短几十年，你又何必这样？你只会弄得自己很辛苦~阿队。
做么不要乐活` 啊哈。
我不要伤害你，
我们全就放长双眼咯，我相信善有善报，恶有恶报的。

哦也`下线了，拜读者们.

都我没用啊`

2010-04-25T21:41:00.004+08:00

嗯，
对自己彻底失望。
璇啊璇，甘愿了没`

看见了没啊~

这就是以前的我们。

很seaweed吧，

我们友情一向都没事，

好得很啊。

我已想尽办法，挽回这段友情。

只有你，让我知道了，

原来Friendship,是可以Forever的，

你知道吗？

我希望，彼此在给自己，

和我们的友情，

One more chance,

我希望，我们可以，

让我们的友情，

更坚固，

更强.

我答应你。

这是我对我们友情许下的承诺。

要下线了，

再见读者们。

101th POST.

2010-04-25T18:07:00.004+08:00

不好意思，我不想更新`♥

昨天玩得好累，全都想让我开心。
可是，我不想让自己开心。
让大家失望了，我是自暴自弃的。

刚2点起身，真的好累。起身她就有信息我，一封很冷的内容，却有温暖的感觉。
可是，

又想起一些事。伤心病又来。

不知道为什么啊，就...最近伤心失落都习惯性的来找我。

鼻子怎么感觉酸酸的，

然后才发现，眼泪已一滴一滴的流下。

然后她却告诉了我，苦过就好了。会吗？我好想知道，

我好想开心. 我又好想回到从前

☹

照`

＿（２３ｔｈ　Ａｐｒｉｌ）＿

因为才睡了３个小时，所以眼袋特别深，

别见怪。

言枉｀玩到没得玩．．

这张真的有feel！

喜欢这张．

言枉`又在烧牛奶. Alamak

Happy Birthday Ms.Wong

xAh JAJA <3 Happy Birthday

不好意思，很暗啊`

我好想彻底的放弃，
我好想离开．
好想，和大家．
说声

抱歉，和再见．

对我在乎的某人，我真的有关心和在乎。
我不舍得的。
好想现在就雨过天晴。
可是我不知道如何是好。
我好想现在就解决这最恐怖的问题，
这问题，对我来说很巨大。
你应该不会看我的BLOG.
可是，我好想和你说。
You are still my bestfriend,
Although I don't deserve one.
But if I am able to deliver,
I just wanted to say,
I am really sorry.
Although I don't deserve a forgive.
Although you said we changed.
I don't think so.
If it is true,
I will try my best to do whatever I could.

To :

Someone who is so so important to me,

Someone who I've hurted alot.

♥

新、旧？

2010-04-21T16:51:00.003+08:00

请告诉我

解释，什么用处。

是是是，都我错。你没错。

明明就是。

朋友啊，

那已经够了。

还你自由。

没用的我，

就只好，

把那美好的回忆，

存活在梦里。

永远不让它消失。

也许这就是人，

总会变。

也许我还在，

摸索完全没可能出现的真相。

无能为力。

自己的心情都是混乱的。

告别了，朋友。

星期一.

2010-04-05T19:24:00.002+08:00

啊!!!!!!!!!!快受不了!
很 sick, 早上until now never eatt!! 去学校睡觉,睡睡睡like pig! 感觉想吐,吃不下东西! 啊! T.T
天气 SUCK!
功课 SUCK!
全都 SUCK ):

no moood le,
LEST!!!!!!~
拜

星期日。

2010-04-04T18:37:00.000+08:00

昨晚睡不着，躺在床上两小时，9点30就起床~一起身就面对着电脑跟她聊天。。超闷啊！！然后就出门！很早叻~10点多就出了。吃东西~到金河逛逛。下午到The curve吃午餐啊~都吃不下。因为昨晚没睡到。。

自恋1！

自恋2。

自恋3。

ciggie area. smoke? ~

到家msn聊天~等下要和老爸庆祝生日~拜!

星期六.

2010-04-03T18:24:00.000+08:00

Hate me, hate me all you want.

A boring Saturday, laziness to update, excuses.

Back to the point. Exams, already late to talk about it. But I just screwed all those papers up. Especially English paper. Yeah, it's a big joke.

Maths -14marks compared to the previous term.

Science is -5marks.

BM maintained.

English -20marks, horrendous!

Improvement in Sej, iloveyouvanessaleongwaiyie. ♥

Geo is screwed up.

KH is screwed up.

@Exam: JOKER!

Everything is so shit. Yeah, friendship, school, emotion, socialising. All terribly ruined.

I LOVE

京 .

wo bu zai hu le, xiang zen yang jiu zen yang ba. wo bu jue de zhe zhi de ni qu zuo. ye mei you hao chu. suan le ba. wo ye kai shi fang qi. na ni ye shi ba. wo zhen de bu zai hu. ruo ni ye zhe yang xiang, na ni kai xin jiu hao.

Oh readers, wait for my new skin. And a new chatterrrrbox (:

Signing off for dinner. Bye.

阿京我爱死你..

LOL

2010-03-28T06:29:00.000+08:00

LOL. LOL LOL. I look exactly like an effing freak of Jing. Yeah who cares hahahahahaha. I couldn't find a nicer template than this, so wait for the upcoming skinnnnn.

Idiot,

2010-03-21T15:55:00.001+08:00

Yes, and I fucking hate it when someone uses the laptop and closes all my windows which I was loading all jing's video on Baidu, which you know takes a long time for the whole show type, which is around 1hour or more. I took the whole morning to load it since it's laggish using wireless, and someone somehow closed it for no mother fucking reason. Thanks, you made my day fucker.

BYE.

(:

2010-03-14T17:23:00.002+08:00

I don't care what you guys think la. It's damn normal already nowadays. So what.
Love you love you love you.

:)!
65 bucks man, i'm gona get it :D
muacks.

♥

2010-03-07T17:58:00.002+08:00

You're my only love, (:

<3!

muahmuah, :3.

Signing off bye.

It's sad seeing life going on, but I'm not inside it.

2010-03-07T17:01:00.003+08:00

(Saturday)

Fever. Flu. Sorethroat. Cough, eww. Cant they just get away.

Went sohai's house study. No effing use lor, I was so sick. I felt like sleeping all the time. Did some maths. And went to play his comp. Camwhore in the toilet. See him dota. Talktalktalk. Watch his sister do weird things. See his dog. So cute one. Damn sick at that time. 6+ mum fetched me. Homed and then dinnered again outside. Was utterly pissed. I claimed that I was sick, so i asked mum to order noodles. And they had others. Mum asked them to serve me my food first. Cuz i didn't eat much. I don't wanna eat instant noodles at sohai's hse. So unhealthy you know. Guess what.

They served my food after all the dishes mum ordered were served. Forget it.

(Sunday)

Woke up at almost 12. At 1 went to Kajang town. First second I got down from the car. Someone called. I didn't answer. When I saw my phone, I called him back.

Him: Aunty, you going eat ah?

Me: Ya, why.

Him: blabla talk nonsense.

Me: Where you? Why you can see me one.

Him: Me ah, you cannot find me one la. You try looking at the opposite side of the road.

(Looked around)

Me: Didn't see you also.

Kup his call. Stupid one la.

Walked all over places to find food.

At last found.

Settled down and brunched, I was in car. Playing with the phone. That weirdo called again,

Him: Wa aunty, playing phone ah.

Me: Wtf, why u stalking me.

Him: How I know, where I go you also appear in front of me.

What the eff, zzz.

He is really a weird stalker la!

Mum and dad wanna go sw.

I wanna follow.

Then I sat back down in front of the comp.

Don't wanna go. Not feeling well also.

Don't feel like studying at all.

I'm waiting for holidays to come.

FML FML FML! I don't wanna fall sick anymore.

For those who once had sad memories, who'd gone through sad and disappointing moments.

I dedicate this song to you, )':

Forget everything sad, continue life. Cuz tomorrow will be a better day.

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说我们
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
林宥嘉, 我爱的人.
Thanks nie, this song is great.

I'm great and happy nowadays.
Byebye.

2010-03-05T18:49:00.000+08:00

lmao. I love 5800. At sushi king. Gota go sohai's hse study tmrw. So bored one. Damn full. Gota go. Sis snatching phone. Bye bye dogs!

Omg.

2010-02-22T19:18:00.002+08:00

Omg hahahaha today's too bored.
I think going to school is worse.
Gotta go byebye!

I'm way different from others.

2010-02-22T03:50:00.000+08:00

Hihi all, so late already and I'm still on :)
Just finished settling everything at home.
Will update about cny real soon.
I'm too lazy.
Sorry sorry!

Stay tuned.
Gotta go pigpigpig.
Signing off. Bye!

( No title )

2010-02-21T14:12:00.002+08:00

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm so darn fucked up.
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FML.

Aku bosan.

2010-02-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

I finally found somehow who saved my life.
Thanks, for everything.

School is reopening in like 4 days time?
When I thought about it str8 POTONG STEAM! );
Sad.
Had chicken rice in Seremban today. Then, accompanied grandad to pay his "cukai tanah", idk what tax thinggy.
Woman : Amoi, lain kali datang jangan pakai seluar pendek.
( Girl, next time don't wear short pants when you come here )
Me : Staring at her. Stunned. Huh.
Woman : Sini pejabat, tak boleh pakai seluar pendek.
( It's office here, you're not allowed to wear short pants )

MY GRANDAD AND I WAS STARING AT THAT FUCKING BITCH.
Come on, it's so obvious you these Malays cannot wear short pants. You're just jealous :p

Nothing much to mention.
Bored.
Ciao.

Fair and square.

2010-02-18T02:04:00.000+08:00

"Mummmy!", sobbing profusely. Tears were pooling all over her big shiny eyes, rolling down her cheeks continuously. I was wondering, why is she crying so badly. And then, I heard something so awful that I wanted to cry. "XXX doesn't wanna be friends with me anymore. XXX call me fatty. The whole class was laughing at me, they were teasing me and leaving me alone."
WHAT THE F?
Mummy tried to make a complaint to the teacher. Oh yes, the teacher took action. BULLSHIT. What I saw was all cryings and sadness after that. THEY JUST MADE HER LIFE SO CHAOTIC.
She told me, when she was 8. She have no friends at all. Then she met a girl, she decided to make friends with her. "Hi, can I be your friend?" Ask yourself, do you make friends like this? NO. All we say is, "Hi, can we make friends?" The only reason she said like that was because she had no friends at all.
Just because she is overweight, everyone judge her like an alien. Like someone who doesn't deserve friends at all. FUCK. FUCK THIS WORLD.
From 7 to 8 to 9 to 10 and now 11.
Her fucking classmates are still bullying her like always. By calling her names, ordering her to do things, treating her like a maid.
What is she? She came out from a mother's womb like you guys do.
She never want to be like this, she was like this starting from 7 years old. She was skinny as hell before that. Mummy brought her to see hell lot of nutricionist, this and that, and all the answers were, "Oh, maybe genes problem? Get her into a proper diet"
COME ON, she doesn't even eat alot. 3 meals a day, that makes her fat? Then what am I?
I was angry at her classmates, I even wanted to go scold them. But mummy stopped me from doing that. I just don't know why.
Some teachers even dislike her because of her weight? Her appearance?
GO GET A LIFE. Life is so unfair to her.
She is a human like you guys, she if living a life.
SHE IS TOO KIND FOR YOU DOGS TO BULLY.
DO NOT TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.
DO NOT TAKE YOUR IMMATURENESS TO HARM OR HURT SOMEBODY ELSE.

Fucking juvenile.

Chinese new year.

2010-02-14T20:53:00.002+08:00

Am so lazy to upload pics.
CNY is dead boring.
Bye.

Holidays.

2010-02-11T18:05:00.000+08:00

Hihi all, :) Chinese new yearrr! :D ahahha. Not going school tomorrow. Wanna out! Damn sian, bye.

Nothing.

2010-02-07T19:59:00.001+08:00

Nvm ba, since you hated me so much from last time. Then let it continue.

What's the point.

2010-02-06T14:57:00.000+08:00

I now realised what 've been shared and talked about, were all rubbish. What would you still expect? We just hated you alot. Do you know? I gave him a tad of face, and I'd still tolerated you. But this time I'm feeling sad and sorry for you. Good job I shall say. Whatever done, is done. It's too late to feel guilty, or whatever you are going to feel. But I do think that you won't even know what you have done, to friends like us. You wouldn't want to admit it. People said you were acting pity. What makes boys like you, is what you make out of yourself. Bitching. Yeah, exactly. I AM JEALOUS. Jealous of how you can do everything so perfectly and well. But it is rather to be not perfect now. I don't know how to bitch around. Why do you like to judge, why do you like to backstab alot, I just don't know why. Why would you choose to hurt people near you. Just give me a fucking reason. You used people, to get what you wanted. Isn't that bitchful. I do think so. I tolerated you alot. Oh no, it's US/WE tolerated you too much. And today is the day, I wanted to tell everything out. You spill words whichever way you wanted. We have feelings too. I have feelings too. You can say anything you wanted to, you can do everything you want. So what? Cant you just think of us first? You show faces, that I always hated it alot, I hate it. But I just kept quiet, do you know why? I don't wanna lose a friend. Now what? You're making everything too over. Tell what you should, and keep what you should. I'm empty-minded now talking about you.
DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DON'T HAVE A BRAIN.
(:

Hihi people, just ignore everything above. Okay, the whole week is too boring except for the cross country. It's a lil fun and a lil not fun. It's been years a havent been running for the cross country. Nie wasn't running with us on Friday. And something so lucky happened to her. I supposed it to be so lucky. Think positive? Ok, Mr.Ali was splashing water all over us in the jungle. Kill him! Aw please don't tell him this. It was still a fun run anyway.
It's indeed a sad week, fucked up things just happened so sudden. I'm still trying to settle everything asap.
Bye all. Out tomorrow x)

Happy chinese new year!

2010-01-31T19:07:00.002+08:00

Hahaha! Happy chinese new year all. Muacks bye.

Woah.

2010-01-31T03:32:00.008+08:00

Yo what's up dudes reading again!
I got hit by a whole big pile of homeworks and I am now officially dead! Don't feel sad I will still love you. Woah, got hit by so many homeworks, of course have to relax. :) So everyone decided to go sw, and yes me too xD Went sw with babes and bro.
Ok as usual me and mum to SgLong fetch nie and bro, then we went to eat breakfast. And guess what we saw sunny leong again! He goes to eat dimsum at Balakong every saturday lo, mum said that place is their family's canteen. Rofl. We went there by KTM la. Mother fucking packed lo the train, all pushing here and there. Some Malay pork aunty's buttock keep hit mine. Fuck. While squeezing there I shouted la, don't push la don't push WOI! My god, whole train passengers looked at me like one alien. Then awhile more those noob dogs still refused to not push, then I shouted again, : edited OI JANGAN PAKSA LA. After that one Malay dog said, "(I forgot what he said" I was like wtf, I don't get what he mean so I didn't even reply. There's got one aunty inide the train that kept staring at me lo jibai, she would be thinking, "Woah teenagers nowadays so insolent?" Shame of me. Sorry. I've got no choice, you can't imagine my butt got hit by pigs. Pfft. We reached there awhile more, then we went to ts to find zs to take back his specs. Then we went to gasoline meet them, saw Shen, Sykuan, Ojk, Yaul and at last my Vki babe la. Hais don't know why she like dowan talk to me la, I duno wad happen. Sms her also nvr reply, she look sad also. After taking the specs we went to Pavilion, got scolded by Shen, cos we left after saying hi. My purpose going was to find an Adidas sweater. Went to meet up with Fei babe, she joined us for about 3 hours finding the sweater. Went up and down up and down. I'm saving for the Puma's ): Price is pretty RM279.90. But finally I bought one Adidas sweater! Chio one k, thanks to Nie,Fei and Poh la! They helped me choosing around for so long, feeling a lil guilty now ;b Went downstairs to Gap, Billabong, Roxy, almost all sportswear shop and another Adidas Originals, went inside and looked around, price damn nice one. Don't talk about it la, I can't afford besides taking from mum ;) Then we saw my babe zhuzhu xD with her mum ;b long time nvr c her le damn miss her la! That time I was too busy thinking about the sweater and I forgot to hug her. Nvm la, babe say still got chance!

Just showing off my jacket la, sorry lo.
After that Fei babe gotta go with her dad to eat, then we walked back to sw. It's so fucking hotzx. Oh while walking back to sw we saw our art teacher last year, that abit nabeh bt married one. His wife is effing hawt and chio. He said Hi to poh, but after that he said "eh hi!" to me, maybe he couldn't recognize me la. We were so hungry at that time, we wanted to go Tbowl for lunch, but too bad fullhouse. Saw mingyau and his gf there. So we've no choice but going 6th floor. Guess what? Cheong k :) Ate inside, food was shit. That I could only describe them with that word, no offence.

While singing halfway, an UNCLE came in suddenly, he was drunk. He shouted in our room like one mad cow, then he went to shen's room lo. I pei-ed him there, they were shocked and scared of him. LOL. Scary la, drunk. Then I went back to our room. That uncle came back too. Know which uncle anot, this one la k.

Can you see his stupid drunk face. Hahaha! You allowed to post one :) After 6 this uncle went to Pavilion with his frens. Then I was screaming while singing NOBODY! We supposed to sing till 7. But we left early cuz poh said he wanna buy shirts and we wanna take sticker photos! So we went to take ;) We were fooling around taking pics, cuz they never tried before doing that at the sticker photo shop. So i showed them to take :D I often go there to fool around.

So much fun! :) After taking those chio pics, we forgot to choose the pics we wanted, then we went out of the editing place, so one of the nice pics was not printed out. Poh actually thought of finding out why the picture wasn't print out, so she went to ask the girl there. Fucking lanci la, feel like slapping her fuck face. Fucking seafood. After that we went to buy a bag :) Two similar bag with my darling. And then mum called lo, she said she wanna bring us to have bak kut teh :D at petaling street. Gossip gossip before eating, and food sucks too although got pork sad ): After eating, we went petaling street for a walk. Bought longan drink, mmm me likey ;) Love it. Hate those fucking salesman lo, wan me buy pirated things one ew. "Lenglui come take a look." I know i lenglui but no need like that call one leh I will shy. F2. LOL what la, not happy izit. Went in some CNY decorations shop with mum,nie and poh. Went in to fool around. Damn lame lo the poh. Damn packed inside. Bought some items for the tanglung making competition.

Ya la I shortest la.

Oooh say hi to dad ^_^

After that back home. Sorry poh ur specs is lost! ):

Muacks all, love you babes. Next week wan out again xD

Ok lo, sorry pohpoh for not looking for ur things la, nvm next week ok? F2

I can't find the sun again.

2010-01-24T18:37:00.006+08:00

Sunday, it's as usual boring besides shopping Sundays.
Nothing much to say.
Hope everything will get better soon.
And I actually hate to join upper seniors for brunch, cuz we have one 25 minutes break less. That's awful. I prefer breakfast and lunch, more to be proper.

" When I'm lost in the rain, In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way And when I'm scared, losing ground When my world is going crazy You can turn it all around and when I'm down you're there Pushing me to the top You're always there, giving me all you've got "

Would you respect a 9 years best friend's decision, to give up you and her friendship? Who'd want to, who'd feel happy.

I might be a sensitive friend, the one that craves attention, but still doesn't give full attention and great care to others. I crave branded things, the way I see things, the way I judge, is different from others. This is what makes me your best friend. The reason, I treated you cold in a sudden is from nowhere. I couldn't find a reason, because all in my mind was only friends are not forever. You will hate me, you will feel hurt. And because you felt hurt, I said something cruel, which you'd never expect me to speak that out. Don't, it's not worth it for a friend like me. I'm definitely not a good friend, I, as well don't deserve friends. But why? I still couldn't let it go, you wished you never existed. What about me? Will it be worse? I don't even want to mention about it. I've been ditching you lately, cause I really couldn't find anything that we can chat anymore, maybe not sharing secrets. Perhaps I'm someone who likes to share secrets, but I've thought about this for the whole night that I haven't been sleeping. It's your personalities, you don't share secrets. I questioned myself why am I so selfish, never ever cared about your feelings. There are tears shining in my eyes, when i decided to type everything here. No one hopes to lose a friendship just like this, and I've got no reason for everything I did, nasty things. Sorry to say this, I really have no reason, I'm rather useless, or some madcunt, or maybe weirdo, attention seeker, or some bitch you'd like to hate. I shouldn't force anyone to satisfy myself, I shouldn't crave for attention and care so much, I shouldn't treat you like something you would not want to be, I shouldn't behave so selfish, I shouldn't even judge a best friend like you. Blame me. Blame me for everything.

Lost and found.

2010-01-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

Oh my god, where is she?
Where is Xuan?
Where did she go?
She disappeared?
What?
Where!
Why is she not here?
For a week?
"How are you?"
Why didn't you answer my calls?
Where are you?
How is everything going?
To those messages, and calls that I haven't been replying and answering, Oooh I'm soso sorry. Am suffering from some sickness or whatever it is that you guys shall not worry about it.

I reopened my blog after some time, well it doesn't matter at all anyway. My blog has nothing fantastic for you to read and see or wonder about, it's a plain and plain blog and another PLAIN blog perhaps. Ngaww don't look at me with such spooky eyes I beg. Oooh staying home for days with the sick isn't something great to talk about. I wanna go out! And yes to say, next and next and the rest of all Saturdays!
Mmm, no likey for mum :( " As you like, but it's after you recover. ", and yay-ed i go.

So, i shall make this post as simple as what you can expect! Cuz i've too much to talk about for the past few weeks, but still I'm not going to, they were just...

TOO MUCH! WAY TOO MUCH!!
Ciao!

2009-12-29T03:25:00.004+08:00

Today is another dumbfuck boring day, again. I faced the comp like almost the whole day, eyes closing soon. Okay babe! The previous post is not counted. Haha! Nini is definitely getting better after two days. Guess you're wondering what, or who or which nini! I know it ryhmes with NieNie, but Nini is my new Pinscher. Haven't been introducing to everyone since I got it. Back to three days ago, when Me, mummy and sis went to get it at mummy fren's house. My puppy's mother, which is named after Mimi, was looking real sad when we took it away. But it didn't bark at all. Just staring at it's daughter as it was going away leaving her. I knew this is cruel, then suddenly the thought of giving the puppy back to return to it's mother aroused into my mind. I couldn't bear to do it, and then tears pooled all over my eyes. And so, i promised Nini, that I will take care of her like a lil princess! When it reached home, it looked real sad, sad and sad. Like it was gona cry. She is absolutely quite alright until today! Haha, no pictures. Too lazy to upload them, sorry!

Okay, i'll show you guys one stupid picture. Dota-ed with Sour, ahahah!

Sour: lol
Sour: haha
Me: LOL?
Sour: nice 1
Know why did he said nice 1? Cos i killed him manzx! Ahahah! I'm sad, sigh sigh! I missed you, where were you? I'm stil waiting. No moodzxzx again, i go sleep. Ciao.

Yay! Kiss me,hug me and cuddle me!

2009-12-28T03:31:00.003+08:00

(Featuring xiiaobabe's blog aka Saw Sian Fei!) .

Fyi, i'm too lazy to blog at the moment. So i'll just write about babe's linkie! Simple as that atm!

Ahahahhaahah babe! Guess what's your blog name? I'm so smart lalalalala! You owe me Macs! Teehee! As you know, im so sorry. I'm always busy for not helping you make the blogskin. But yours is so nice! Hahah! Kk, for the people who wanna know how to get the url to her blog! Put your pair of eyes on this!

Actually was watching my drama but then i went googling for her link! Pfft! Was watching till they were dancing the pink panther's dance!

Firstly, go to google.com.my and type babe's hotmail address! And then click google search! (For the people who know her hotmail) If you don't know, sorry i can't help!

After that results will be revealed! Then click the third one! I know la, smart people who doesn't have her hotmail will simply just type the purple title down there in the picture and click google search. In case you're too stupid.

Click on the third title and they will navigate you to her blogger profile! Then you will see My Blog on the bottom of your screen. Simply just click it! 0f all crimes, n0ne c0mpare t0 y0u stealing my heart! Actually I knew she's referring to me hahaha!

There! I copied her link! But Im lazy to relink! Am gona do it later! Haha!

I am truly sorry for those censored parts! It's just unrevealable!

Hey guys! Countdown for New Year? Pls suggest! Damn tired. I dn't know, my feelings of confusion and sadness crossed over me beyond the sky. I can feel it, I wanted to express it! But it's too quick, and for instance I think i shall slowly forget. Seems like friends are more important to you than me, seems like Im just nothing. I couldn't tell that I really missed you. Bye all! Am lazy to update more! Night!

Unable to think it through.

2009-12-24T15:41:00.006+08:00

TAADAA! Patience is golden! ;)
Made it myself, kinda lame.
Not gona talk much.
No mood at all.
Christmas? Forget it.
Old song, but meaningful.

Adios.

Should I smile because he's my friend, or cry because that's all he is?

2009-12-22T04:46:00.001+08:00

Hola peeeeeepos again. I'm here to update, thanks for enduring my laziness. Got out from the bathroom. Back from badminton, a little happy. Don't know why lo, someone knew why k! Muacks.

Let's enjoy at Over Time, located at Jalan Sultan Ismail. The heart of KL during Christmas eve! Dad's going, so I'm still asking for permission to go. It's RM200 per ticket. Available entries for all abv 18. I might be going if dad allows!

So looking forward to it.

Actually im not sure where to start talking what i did during these few boring days.

Hospital,SushiKing.

Went to the hospital with Grace Ayi, accompany grandad to go see doctor. And then to SushiKing for our lunchhh!

Dad got me this new MontBlanc pen. It shines, goshly prettaye! Love it damn loads. Went to mum side's relative's wedding dinnah, it was quite lame. Before the wedding dinner, did bro's hair since he was too lazy. And i forgot to take pics of his hair. I so damn cool right.

Helloh dad!

After wedding dinner, asked dad to fetch QingJie from her house. So dad said ok. And jie came to stay over. It was boring, real boring. Wanted to go yamcha at night after bro came back from his Prom Night, but he was too exhausted.

Covering my bitch face.

Trained to KL the next day, to sw and ts to do some shopping. Damn tiring. Legs so sore. Walked non-stop for 7 hours. Went with the one i loved, teehee!

Oh em gee, this is soooo funny!

Went Papa John's for lunch after we reached there, to the toillettee and walked for quite a while. Bought shirt, and then eat.

Wow then we walked to sw after finish walking at ts till the fifth level. It was raining.

Niceeeeee!

After walking from the ground floor to the sixth floor and back to fourth and then fifth, went down to Macs. Saw PennyTai. 've seen her twice, one's at genting. Her concert. I had the VIP seat!

After shopping for so darn long, bought few tops and a bottom. I'm totally CASH STRIP!

Mum called, came out and sat at the main door beside those water features for quite awhile. Then take pictures. After tht we walked down to the taxi stand, and got captured ok! So chio right. We had steamboat for dinnnnah!

Homed, then sleep. The very next morning, mum shook me up. So i woke up very early, and prepared. I srsly don't know wad to wear.

Me: Mummmmmm wad should I wear, can i wear shorts? I'm scared the people there doesn't like it.

(And i eventually hate it when people stares at me with some weird eyesight)

Mum: Just wear anything you want lah. We going for shopping after that.

Me: Okayyee!

Mum: Faster la, everytime we go out only wait you. I seriously don't know what takes you so long.

So I simply just chose the Ralph Lauren's dressss!

Went mummy's malay client's weddingg. Had a buffet meal. And then off we went to KLCC, for some window shopping.

Oh man, it's nice!

Guess where we had our lunch? It's Chili's! Love it so much, we waited for 20 minutes.

Bought a top from FrenchConnection. And wishing a Replay's skinny for christmas present! It's over thousand, lol. Dream on girl!

Sorry, I don't really know chinese. If there's any mistake I'm so so sorry! And my lappie doesn't even have the chinese language for me to type. Pfft!

Tag reply: 点名规则:

A. 被点到名字的要在自己的博客里写下自己的答案，然后去掉一个你最不喜欢的问题再加上一个你的问题，仍然组成20个问题，传给其他8个人，列出其他8个需要回答问题的人的名字，还要到这8个人的部落格裡留言通知对方——你被点名了，被点名者不得拒绝回答问题，完成游戏的人将会永远得到大家的祝福。

B. 这８个人要在自己的部落格裡註明是从哪裡接到的，并且再传给其他8个人，让游戏继续下去，不得回传。被点到名字的人将会得到大家的祝福，并且所有美好的愿望都会在不久的将来实现。

Tag:

No one thanks.

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Questions:

1.你希望从朋友(不包括爱人)那里得到的是什麼?

Trust. (Xin ren)

2.点你的人是?
Ja!

3.最受不了自己的哪个缺点?

Petty. (Xiao Qi)

4.难过的时候会?

Drink.

5.现在有什么愿望?( 说出3个 )

- 7A's for PMR.

- Same like ja, grow taller.

- More cash to shop.

6.以一个形容词形容点名的人的外表

Si wen bai lei. Do you get what I say, i hope not! Im just joking, no hard feelings.

7.你现在最想做的是什麼?

Scream in front of an ocean.

8.用一个字形容自己

Narcissist. (Zi Lian)

9.你的梦想?

Having a professional job, earning lots of money to afford Bugatti Reyvon, or Bentley. Own a big house. And give my family everything comfortable to repay them.

10.现在最希望的事?

Get myself back to the study mood.

11.最想要的东西是?

Happiness.

12.接下来最想去旅行的国家或城市? 为什么?

To Berlin, Europe again. Shop?

13. 你为什么要回答这些问题?

I don't know.

14. 怕不怕世界末日?
Yes.

15.什麼时候觉得孤独?

Every moment thinking of him.

16.最近一次掉眼泪是?

What? I cried yeah. Cuz of him?

17.想对点你名的人说的话?

I will spamspamspam you kk!

18.家人重要还是伴侣重要?

Family la dey. Ya allah.

19.相信“一见钟情”吗?

Yes la. Ask all my frens ok.

20.如果世界末日来临,你会做什么?

Do everything i want, but it doesn't matter cuz everyone's dying too.

My confession to boys,

You guys are sex maniacs! Excuse me, do you use your bottom part of your body to think. To circulate your mind and make interpretations. You treat us girls as a puppet, a toy. Finish playing and throw. 've you guys really know our feelings. YOU GUYS WILL NEVER. Guys can have another girlf outside, and say " Sorry but i couldn't control myself " But if girls have another boyf outside, you will say that we're cheap and thickface. Come on k, you guys wanna have an affair or whatever, just go ahead and do. But before that, don't hurt ur partner. They're innocent. They put in so much effort in a relationship, and you just treat them like rubbish? Ignoring, this and that is just some stupid nonsense act. And you guys, get together with a girl just to satisfy your desire. What the fuck? To release your desperation for sex and whatever. Use ur brain and think la. All boys in this world is the same, yeah you la the one reading. What? Very unhappy? All boys same, no difference. All boys have attitude problem, they're always right. Their partners wrong. They'll never contribute in a relationship, only girls do. BOYS SUCK LIKE SHIT. YOU ALL SUCK!
If you're feeling unhappy or unsatisfied or whatever, just leave a comment okay! I'll accept it no matter it's positively fine or negatively bad. And if you wanna start a debate, i'd always welcome you.
At the very last I knew the truth, thanks. And you made me felt so happy.
Gotta go guys, it's almost 5! 've to go sleep and help ahma for some prayers thing, goodnight!

Alone in the rain.

2009-12-15T12:41:00.001+08:00

Oh Oh! A very good morning peeepos! Brunched at home, dad went to takeaway. I..uh actually gona wake up at 7.30 to watch tivo and cycling but sad i failed. Epic failure! Am liking the picture above, teehee. It rained so heavily yesterday, and thunder along too. So quickly off-ed eveything to prevent the thunder to strike my modem, again! Then i went downstairs, cuz upstairs was too creepy. Ran downstairs, had snacks. And when the rain stopped, i went back upstairs.
Me: "What the fuck!"
Sis: "Jie,what!"
Me: "You come up and see youself"
Sis: (Running up)
Me: (Ran out of my room and went down to my ahma and told her what happened)
Sis: "WAH! Ahma! Jie's room all wet like swimming pool!"
Me: "You wipe it for me lah."
Sis: "Let it dry itself"
Pff-fft!

Can you imagine how wet my room was, oh nono, i've had pictures for you too see. Save up your imagination!Okay let's leave this thing alone first. I find it sooooo funny! Then in the evening called up fei and chatted with her until 15minutes before her tuition we hung up. Called nie and talked awhile too. After that, i tried to go online, and i couldn't. That's ridiculous. So i went to watch tivo and then at 12 i fell asleep until dad's back from which i don't know where. Thinking where to go this week! Am not gona on for days, i think.

I cant read your mind, i don't know what am i thinking too. Everything just changed in a sudden, i'm not getting used to it. What has happened is already happened, nothing's gona change it. Nothing. I hope i'm the nothing. What were you thinking all the while, it's still an unsolved puzzle. No one knew what were you thinking. So i can just tell myself i don't care. You asked me to find another one, do you think loving someone is like buying things in the night market? I'll prove you wrong. So gona prove you wrong.

No moodzxz, bye all.

You're too far away, i couldn't catch you.

2009-12-14T03:10:00.001+08:00

Heart broken into pieces, soul flew away by few words. I wanted to throw my heart away, I don't want love anymore. It was an imprecise method, however, i was often misunderstood. Absolutely disheartened. I've put my effort into something for such a long time, expecting for fruitful seasons, but it would not come. I've used every method, every way to succeed, but finally it has gone back to zero. By right, it's the starting again. Like some games would say, fail, start new game. It's similar to everything i'm going through.
Hello peepos, 've been watching tivo, and did nothing staring at the wall! And here's my new skin, i liked the previous skin more. So, don't mind to leave some comment. And i knew it's laggy to load this page, if you're loving it, i shall say, "Patience!". Well in the opposition like what MissCecelia, '09 best award given English teacher,said something so valuable and memorable as well which i'd always love to say that loudly after her, making her utterly pissed! That golden word is "Keep quiet! My patience has it's limit!" Shouting here and over there, behind the classroom. Afterall we're still missing her admirable luscious curly hair.
And the continued conversations, quarrels laid here.
M.Ce: "YiXuan, you better go back to your place before i jot down your name"
Y.Xu: "What la teacher, always accuse me, i so innocent" (Showing real innocent pity face)
M.Ce: "Ok now get back to your place, take out your book"
Y.Xu: (Runs around everywhere to find one similar book that looks like the book she wanted to use on that day) "Nah, i got book."
M.Ce: "Keep quiet ah yixuan, it's too much of you. You're disturbing the class"
Y.Xu: "What la"(Stands up go behind her and show everyone I'm taller than her)
M.Ce: "YiXuan(High-pitched voice, with a lil weird rhythm), now go back to your place and keep quiet!"
Y.Xu: (Laughed crazily and go back to my place, acting serious)
M.Ce: "Ok someone come out answer my question and write it on the board."
Y.Xu: "Teacher me teacher me!!" (Goes over to cheeyen and ask her for answer)
M.Ce: (Hands over markerpen) "Ok write your answer uh, dun fool around"
Y.Xu: (Writes the correct answer)
M.Ce: "Ok good, ok blabla come out and answer the next question"
Our beloved English teacher.
Me,Nie,Fei, and Jz were the noisest in the class during English. And we're always those peeps that got scolding. Anyway, we anticipate English lessons. It's the best time, and best subject of all to play, for chit-chattings and to bully our teacher. Muacks love you Ms.Cecelia, hope you teach us next year then we can ditch your class, and never do our work!
I better go sleep first. Dad standing in front of my room, scolding. Whatever. Shall go sleep now.

2009-12-13T20:06:00.012+08:00

Why double post a day?
It's cos of some lowlife dogs. Some sore losers.
I slap your balls high to the sky, -'-
K la, u wanna make till like that. You forced me to do this i tell you. Come la ok, im not scared at all. You touch one of my hair, you gg.com la. Don't think I very nice to bully, then can climb onto my head. You reading this de la, place your eyes on this post la. I can tell you la, i don't know what i fucking did to you that you fucking damn pissed off at me. You fucking fucked up, delete me from your msn. Nevermind sua, you fucked up joker la hor. Still so fucking nice out there. You think i fucking snatched friends from you is it? You fucking think la, u fucking deserve friends anot. Even got friends also fucking won't last long with fucking people like you la,OLD HAG. You fucking treat me like this kum lan ah, i nv even fucking do anything to you leh, cheebye. Like one dog, bark here bark there. NO LIFE. Continue reading la douchebag, just face the fucking truth. I offended you izit? Go out slowly talk la, dun hum leh jiaobin. I never scared of you. People never talk to you then you go emo at one side? You so attention seeker is it? Lj la i tell you, u this kind of people. Go out die ur mother also don't know why. Just cos of ur fucking attitude, u think I feel nice? You think we all feel nice? All complains about you only can expect one answer leh. Eh you know wad anot? Everyone sure say, " get used to it ". Come on la, get used to what, your lj fuck up attitude? People cant stand de leh, u still won't wake up from ur dream izit. Ask princess to kiss u then u become prince la. The fucking wake up. Cheebye leh, i never do anything wrong, u always come guai lan me. I owe you izit now. Nevermind la, i can accept dogs are like that. I know i'm too over la, but think back who's the one first. Aiya, friends like you, less 1 not less, more 1 not more. Whatever la k! Sibei kns funny prawn, muacks.
Why red? I myself also not sure, ps. I think all dogs are colour-blind. Oh no wait, all animals are colour-blind.

Indeed a boring sunday, went cycling with sis. End up scolded herzxczxc. No mood. I go eat dinner first. Parents went to attend wedding dinner. Shall end with 2 stupid pictures.

Lame emoticons. Made me laugh like shat. Pff-ff.

Friendship ends just like that. Everything single word in red above is just the way i express everything out. Just ignore that. No offensive gesture. Shall go now.

My biggest fear is never loving anyone again the way I loved you.

2009-12-13T11:31:00.010+08:00

There was a girl who fell in love with a guy, approximately ten months ago. She just loved him the way she wanted despite everything tht is certain to happen. She waited and waited. To collect enough courage to tell the guy, but she also told herself that she won't want to, and tht wouldn't happen. So it didn't. They were so close last time, so damn close. They talk about everything, they laugh together, and share their sadness together. Until one day this guy felt very sad, over some matters. And so eventually she felt sad too, she tried to cheer him up. She felt that she failed. So nevermind, she just tried to make him happy, that's all. And the guy felt very much better than the previous moments. So she felt happy too. She went to school everyday just cos of him, he's the only one in her eye, in her heart. And she thinks about him before she do anything. She dreamt about him and she'll be crazy talking about him in front of her girls, she told her girls everything. And they helped her so much. Her face will be stretching with a bigbig smile whenever she sees him, and talk together like nobody's business. They walk down to the canteen after school almost everyday, and they were only friends. But she felt extremely jealous whenever the guy talks to other girls, she's so selfish. So this girl felt that she's so useless, and stupid, for loving someone that she doesn't have a chance. She calls her girls everytime, spill her sorrow and they're willing to become her listening ear. And comforting her everytime she called, and talked about him. When she thinks about him lately, she felt so sad, and lost. And this guy knew everything few couple of weeks ago, and he started avoiding her, never walk down to the canteen together anymore after school, she felt that he doesn't even treat her as a friend anymore. She cried in her room, she drank alot. She slept alot. And her girls were so worried. She was pretending to be okay, and her girls can just figure it out easily, they understand her very much. So one night, she told them everything, everything she was going through. Right then, she thinks she wanted to give up, but her heart doesn't say so. So she didn't. She's not going to give up after a long way here, no matter what. Her girls supported her so much, but she always say hurtful words to them, and hurt deeply in their heart. She tried to apologize, but she just doesn't know what to do. She told her girls sorry for not really talk and care them, because in her mind, in her soul, he's the only one occupying. So her girls understood, and so she still felt guilty. Guilty and sorry for everything. Cuz she don't wanna lose friendships because of a guy..a guy that gives fake hopes. And she didn't, her girls loved her so much, and she loved her girls. After awhile, smile is no more on her face, her girls felt that she doesn't smile like last time anymore. Only tears shining in her eyes, emotional and always wanted to do everything alone. She hid in her room, she slept everyday, she did everything foolish. Foolish and selfish. But in her mind, she only thinks about him, every day and night. Even dreamt of stupid things. Her girls told her he liked her, but she doesn't believe it. She's always denying cuz she doesn't feel that anymore..she wanted to ask him herself. But she doesn't have the courage to. So, everything just ruined, ruined and ruined. She felt so confused, she wanna scream everything out. But she don't want her girls to get worried, so she kept everything in her heart. And locked it so well. Her heart is seared with pain. Her heart pounds frantically, whenever she thought about it. She's useless! Useless! Rubbish! She started to feel like a stranger from anyone, she gave stupid reasons for not attending parties. She've no more courage to face everyone, all she ever did was just drink, hiding from the truth. She lost in the war, because she had no more energy as she fought so hard for it. And one night, this girl and guy said everything out. Finally and at last. And this girl wanted everything to be like last time, and the guy said it will.

She said thanks for those sweet memories they've had she will carve it in her heart. A part of him has grown in her, and now she shall say once again, she loved him and cared for him. She wouldn't want this ending. She may regret the way they ended, but she will never regret the happiness they had. And now, all that she ever held is just a memory. Thanks again, for giving her these exquisite memories, she appreciate it from the bottom of her heart.

to be continued,goodbye.

Sorry to anyone worrying about me right now, thanks for those messages. I will be okay.

2009-12-12T21:49:00.004+08:00

Am tireeeed! Backbone aching like hell, everything went wrong. And i missed the supposed-surprise-party! Aww! It's so horrible, just back from dinner. With family and bro's friend. Wtfzczx! So full, im growing fat. Pff-ff-f! I sleep at home almost every hour, except smsing with babes. And call here and there. Bro went to watch StormWarrior2 and he didn't bring me along, damn. And he claimed that the movie isn't nice. I think i will like it. Cos i watched the first movie, quite okay. Anyway, Taylor Lautner is so hawt! Aiya, idk what else to do rest of the holiday. Unless going out with friends, tsk. Sigh, worst holiday ever. Bro's friend gona ton at my place tonight. They're watching chelsea vs blablah. Not really interested. Am currently using his blackberry, playing pacman! Man, internet at home still unstable. Fucking shit.

Your mind is just incomprehensible, i cant figure out what are you thinking..not even a tad. Have you ever thought of me. I'm speechless.

2009-12-09T13:49:00.002+08:00

God damn it, no access to the internet again at home. What's the fucking problem, tsk. Am stealing lines, again.
Went for movies with Nie,Fei and Jo on Monday.

Went over to Nie's yesterday :D to set up the xmas tree and to decorate it. It is very precise i was too lazy to set it up so i ended up just decorating it! I was watching tivo while they were busy setting up. Slap me. So cute right me, still take pictures of them!

Went out for bikes after tht. This picture has the 2012 feel right. Ask urself why. You're looking at the cracking road. Scare die me.

Taggie, first time doing it. I was indeed lazy.

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smoke? I suppose.

2. How about drinking? Absolute a no. Cos i drink too?

3. Do you like someone you can't have? Don't know. Don't care.

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? I hope.

5. What's your favourite sport? I'm not very into sports. Eye sports? Playing comp and reading.

6. Its Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do? Call up my friends and fetch me to the club, obviously.

7. Do you like roller coasters? No. Cos people say life's like roller coasters, there're ups and downs. I don't want it.

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf? Don't know.

9. If you could date any celebrity//star, who would it be?
Taylor Lautner.

10. What are you doing this weekend? Out.

11. What is your favourite restaurant? I love all restaurants. I love food.

12. Have you ever hugged someone? Yes. Want one?

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to? What is this.

14. Do you like anyone right now? Don't know.

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair.

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains? Beach.

17. What kind of phone do you have? w910.

18. Computer or Laptop? Laptop. Both is alright. Cuz im using both.

19. Jeans or Sweats? Jeans.

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far? Every.

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday? Fifteen.

22.What should you be doing right now? Finishing this tag so i can eat.

23. What is your favourite TV show? Anything.

24. What's been your last purchase? Clothes.

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke? No.

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people? Never. Not butt.

27. What do you do when you're at home? Watch tv. Eat and play comp.

28. What is your favourite subject? Math and Science. I have two. Correction: Subject(s).

29. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you? Everything is the best till now and till i die.

30. How do you think the people around you feel around you? Lanci. LCLY la what else. Friends will say, Yixuan ah? 'Crazy.'

31. The character for you for yourself is... many. Very lazy to state.

32. On the contrary, the thing you hate about yourself is...im fat.

33. The most ideal person you want to be is...no one. I love myself.

34. The person who tagged you…Fiions, fiona.

35. What relationship of you with him/her? Friend.

36. Your 5 impressions towards him/her? Hyper, smart, pretty, cool and mad. ( No offence ok! ) <3

37. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you? She tagged me.

38. The most memorable thing that he/she had said to you? I must do the tag.

39. If he/she becomes your lover, you will....oh my god. Fiions, will you become a homo too-_-.

40. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...never :) No if.

41. If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on..what the fuck.

42. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...she hates me.

43. The most desirable thing for you to do to him/her is...kiss her.

44. The overall impression of he/her is...she's bad. She made me do the first tag in my life. x3

45. Who you're gonna tag? Nie!

I cant restrict ur images from spamming in my mind every sector of my life..what am i gona do. Tell me..please. Sigh
Byeguys, gotta go eat nao. Ciao.

2009-12-05T19:14:00.008+08:00

Pictures Ft. Jie, Chung, Soon :)

Fucked up. Tsk. People called it happy holiday, mine's sad holiday ok. Nothing to do like one dead meat at home. Sleep for 18hours every day. Like pig. Then now sick like shit. Kana scold somemore. Enough of broken english! Lmao, aiya every single english i use is broken anyway. Who cares. I use broken english steady anot! Tiredtiredtired. Got my modem finally!

Say hi to my new chio modem, F2! And then the wireless router spoilt. So i spent long time setting up this connection thing lo, i damn stupid. You know 2 hours very long? Ya la laugh la, bodo. This is wad i did in the midnight when i have nothing to do la, my chinese steady anot.

And i eventually drew this, fabulous :D love it right? Save it down la, but too bad my name is there, u cant tell others u drew this unless u have same name like mine f2. Yesterday was too boring, so called up jie and we go town yamcha. Nothing else lo.

Ps la, chio face unavailable. Hehehex euu kn0w iie twit riite >.< ew. Utterly disgusted, pfft.
Went along with mum this morning after 18hours of sleep to fetch sis for violin class. Then to bfast. After that went to buy snowice, but those red beans taste disgusting after first bite. So i threw it away, yuck.

Then went to giant after sis's class. Giant, stupid place. Buy some cleaning thing cos maid finish using. Sis went to take the trolley for convenience, then found out the kid-seat thinggy is spoilt. What the hell, spoil own reputation right.

Ya la, the person looking at the cctv. I showing u this finger la. No offensive gesture, just want some improvement but i think i won't come next time when i grow up bringing my children there ok, F2.

I wanted to go Pulau Perhentian so badly but mum says no cos she thinks monsoon thinggy is around. Can anyone give out a hand and stop the monsoon ): Please! I wanna get there and swim with turtles, awww. Ok, might be going PP or Sg. Sg is to attend uncle's wedding. Don't know yet. Mum doesn't wanna give me an answer. She's mysterious as always. Getting more sleepy talking about her, tsk! I dreamt something real funny last night, tsunami came while nie,fei and jo at my place. And then i was hugging nie, fei hugging Jo. Then all of us survived. Wtf, LOL. Laugh somemore i slap ur ljface la. And dreamt something really unokay, sobs! Kept a secret at the moment, :D Still deciding whether going out tomorrow with parents and their frens. One of them staying over at my place, she's sleeping beside me tonight, hahaha. What is possible is subjective, some would say i can't let go of you, yet i think i will. It's a matter of perspective. Love is so stupid. We are all too stupid. Sluggish. Brainless. Do you still love someone who makes you wait, and made you suffer. It's just too ridiculous which it makes no sense at all.

2009-12-01T15:43:00.008+08:00

Christmas is coming :) ! I so cute, omg. So darn cute. Cant figure out why am i so cute.

Yesyes, very lame right. This is wad i play okay? I have nothing to do, the connections are kns. KNS, you know wad. KANASAI, like shyt. I have nothing else to do okay. Had brunch with bro's friends again. Urgh, they're too lame. Tuition is from 430 to 700. Ahh! But it's already the last class. Er, what the fuck is wrong with the smilies at my cbox. Epic failure prawn, epic! It's been a long time since i stepped into Aloha, miss beach. She thinks she might go very soon. Teehee. Er what time isit now? I think i shall go prepare nao.
Just don't take it seriously, no big deal. Don't want to see us? Don't wanna talk to us, nevermind. It's amazing when strangers become friends, but it's sad when friends become strangers. So tired.
..I'm still missing you like a drugaddict. My heart is seared with pain.

2009-11-30T20:09:00.006+08:00

Hihi, stealing connections again :D Stupid la! The thunder struck stroke strick my modem at home. And it's fucking spoilt now, sob! So i'm here at my dad's office to steal connections again. Feeling so bad bad bad. But also a lil angry, the connection suck lo. Keep dc and dc. Wana dota also cant. Like shyt. Damn. Actually going out yumcha today, but sigh. People ffk, sianed.

27th November.
Woke up in the morning. And then mum went to fetch Aunty Florence. And off we went to have our breakfast. (ZhongHuaLou)

Had DimSum. After breakfast, went to Solaris, MontKiara's salon to do my hair which i did mention at my previous post. Brought my book and lappie there so i wouldn't get too bored.

Okay, after 3hours of digital perm. Went Soho for a walk with mum, aunty Florence, bro and Vinc.

Shared my fav H-D, dark chocolate orange with nanny yesterday. And another of my favourite is the greentea one, teehee.

I don't know what I did, maybe some over some silly matters u got pissed, whichever. You don't treat us as friends anymore i guess. I would still text you but you just don't care to reply. What's wrong? Nevermind. Forget it. I knew, you already have your new friends, goodluck. Stil wish you a goodluck, and take care. Enjoy with you girlf.

Times prove everything fades. If people say nothing is forever. I prefer love to be nothing. I'm still waiting. Waiting for the day to come. I still keep the concern to give a call, or whatsoever. I knew wad you feel, some big times not. Still i wanted to say i cared.

2009-11-27T13:28:00.002+08:00

Hi guys im back. Went Sunway yesterday(: Why do i sound so weird when i speak english on phone? No idea ): Okay, i said mums are attention seekers. Now i find mums are cute. Am getting my hair done at Solaris, Cu's and Do's. 3 freaking hours to go! Boredbored. But i still have my laptop with me, fortunately.
Mum asked me some stupid questions.
At first she asked, will you become a lesbian next time? Pfft, zz!
Second, if the new dog came, do you bathe it twice a day? Er, if you'd wish to?
When we wanna bring the dog out to somewhere, we put in in the boot? Cos i cant stand the smell if you put it in the car. Damned.
Am stealing connections from coffee bean, and registered using the person's account which he is currently making my hair. Things get soso bored during holidays without my babes with me! Seriously no joke.
Still wanted to watch A Christmas Carol and New Moon or Ninja Assasin. Desperate actually.
Okay gotta go nao already, bye.

2009-11-25T21:14:00.004+08:00

Hi guys, it's already holidays and i still couldn't get online like everyday? Oh damned. Was abruptly roused from sleep, had sleepless night. Sighed. Went tuition today, ditched class yesterday. New boy in class! Vann's the one who told me that anyway. Yumcha yumcha xD 've forgotten to take pictures neeeway. *Psst* Currently stealing connections okay, am at dad's office :) Babe, you gona cheer up. Love you loads. That's all, am going shopping till weekend. Cyou guys around.

Frustrated and terrified, i turned my tear-dampened face towards the sky and shouted in my heart, what God would do this? I would just tell myself it's alright.

2009-11-22T16:11:00.008+08:00

Hey dogs, if you feel nice spreading whatever about me. It's your problem. The problem is, don't let me figure it out. Spreading rumours around, making everything even more complicated. Invading people's privacy u think people feel so nice ah, i ought some respect and privacy also? You dogs use what to think? Or got nothing to use to think at all? So dog? Diedie also must find out who spread one. Dun at there sohai leh kaninbuey, i nv trample ur tail u come provoke me for fuck ah? Lj la, dun test my patience leh fucking dog, na lan eh. Thanks, and if u still insist to spread it, give me a call la. I'll pay for the money to let my rumours out on newspaper. Spreadspreadspread, spread ur lan ah. You wan play i can play with you one, i dun wish to use vulgarities but dogs forced me to. Fucked up shit, go get a life. Trying to pull me down? Over my dead body dude.

Aiya nvm i can forgive and forget.

Additional photos for today, am tired. Gona update about mengthow's party real soon i guess. Too lazy.

See la, my two babe keep diao me one! Tsk! But still, lovelove :D

2009-11-22T08:09:00.014+08:00

It was the last day of school, i was somehow blur, and blur. Just don't know why. Maybe i was worrying about the other matters, perhaps. But we took alot of pictures. ALOT. Well, i don't know where my consciousness went throughout the day. Some stupid matters broke up my spirit, unexplainable. Things went complicated and intricate, matters went duplicated going through my mind. Im just so stupid and useless i guess.

The night before, i was sitting down staring at the pearlescent moon, thinking of hell alot of things. With cans of beer and tears along, i finally knew what i wanted. I love you. And sorry to the person who care about me most, im just so sorry. I wouldn't want to hide. I just don't want you to get worried cuz of my fucking attitude. Sorry if i attitude you, sorry. Friendship forever ? :) Well, nothing's forever. But friendship can be, er wild guess ! :D
Back to the beginning, i wasn't really in 2Charity. I was in 2Vision right? After zillions trillions gazillions complains, fortunately i entered 2Charity. And then, me and nie got very close with Sf,Jo and Sk. And here we came the gang of five. We hang out together. We share everything, even kisses. And some unrevealling secrets that should be kept unexposed to the public. U guys know wad i meant huh. Things come and go so fast, i haven't really tried to cherish the moments with you guys. I haven't really tried to take everything as an appreciation, and yet time flies. So fast, extremely fast. But still very contented, i have those sweet memories in my mind, for now and forever.

Queenie, 7 years of friendship. We'd gone thru ups and downs, finally we got together so closely, excluding intimacy i mean. Although i attitude you always, you still care for me. You're my best partner to crash down the whole 2Charity. Best partner to create laughters, stupid monkey acts and just everything, everything! ly <3

Sianfei, you're just too sohai i suppose. I don't know where you learn all those things that could make us laugh till tears burst out like end of the world coming. Seriously no fucking idea. But i still love you babe, no matter what.

Joanne, you're short but we all just wouldn't mind! Thanks for letting us -use- you as our joke, filling the moments with laughter about you. Sorry if we hurt you, but everything is just not on

purpose (: You're the cutest as ever.

Sookee, although alot of things happened between us, but i still regard you as my bestie. We too, play laugh and run around like kids, immature kids. But i just enjoy us being together, stop acting cool alright!

WinShen, i knew you since the day we went to ChenWei's house. ChineseNewYear right? I still rmb :D Alot of things happen too, we're always the two person quarreling, argueing over silly matters. And one party would just slam the door open, run to the toilet and cry. But i still love you, as a goodfriend of mine although we doesn't seem to be that close like last time. ( Tears flooding my eyes already ). Be sure you talk more to me on facebook or msn or just give a call to me anytime friend, 24/7. I'm always right there for you.

Alwin, you're just too fucking annoying. Do you know why? Whenever i'm laughing in the class. You would be the one scolding me and insulting me. But i will pull your hair, nevermind. You're still the angel, im the devil. Still a goodfriend of mine (:

CheeYen, although we don't talk really much like we do last time. I would still look at you sometimes, hoping you would talk to me. I envy your stupid english, still i don't know what you talking about always. Vocabulary too deep!

YinLing, i feel so inconfident standing right beside you. Cuz you're just too tall. Way too tall for me, but we're still good friends (: At least i feel nice to stand beside someone so tall, i feel proud! Update your blog please aunty.

KahChun, you're also the annoying one. Always asking me to behave more lady-like, and what? Laughing behind of me whenever i did something funny not on purpose. Hey, i knew it okay! I just kept quiet all the time so i would express everything out on my blog here today.

Lucas, i feel so sorry for you too. Poor victim :D You're the one i always would find if i wanna hold someone's hand! You're blur and stupid as ever, always very scared of me i know. Tsk! Caught you red-handed, teehee :d

KengSeng, you're irritating as ever. Laziest person i've ever seen. But thanks too for making me laugh always :)

Shaun, you're the best! You just kept quiet although we made you cook noodles for us. Settling matters for me at school as im always the troublemaker. And you would always make the world peace when im creating fights or starting an arguement.

Darren, i don't know why are u always so mysterious. Lying down on the floor sleeping, squatting down behind the door or behind the class. Hiding under the table. I still haven't et to sort out what's your problem. Maybe i can help you? Give me a call, LOL.

WeyYii, you're the one who always share your barley drink with me! Love you loads, and thanks for the care (:

Yun, although u left halfway. I still wanna thank you. Alotalot, for tolerating my laziness causing whole lot of mess and the very untidy table. You're always the one helping me to tidy it up, so no one would laugh at me. Although ja would always insult me );

HsinMei and CinLing, there's a very big range between us i guess. I hardly see you guys talk, or hard able to talk to you guys. But still, HsinMei, alwin's asking you out to timesquare for a movie! No offence.

PuiLam, i can barely believe that you doesn't like surians at first. But at last we talked right? We were so close last time. Still remember Jr.2? Im always there to comfort you when u get a D for Bm or English i've forgotten. Still, learn to love Suria :)

Jaga,KahKin,FookHong and Woonsoon, we talk veryvery less but thanks for tolerating my fucked up attitude scolding you guys always. And woonsoon, whenever i ask you whether i'm pretty or not, just say yes. Or else you get into trouble.

JienSiang, i still regard you as my classmate, i still give you a tad of face. To mention your name here, is really embarassing me myself, but i can just tell you. Whatever you do, you can lie to us. You cant lie to urself, if you feel nice doing those stupid and lj things then MIA and never come to school, you're just an idiot. Go ahead and i'll see what happen to you during PMR. Goodluck and god bless you. Go eat more banana i tell you.

Now, every moments we spent together is already in my heart. Whatever i did in the past, if i'd offended you and you deeply hate me, im just gona say sorry to you. If you're still not satisfied, go bang wall. If you would take old grudges with you, i can just say byebye. Im not as silly and stupid as you. To everyone in Sr.2Charity, i admit im the noisiest in class. I do crazy things and scold others before thinking twice. Ya i use my butt to think. But whatever unhappy happened just let it go.

I'd never always make dedications. But i would like to dedicate this lovely poem to the Charitians,

Class of 2009 so bold and sweet

listen to us we shall speak

be so strong, be so tough.

One thing we say - just never give up.

If we're faced with defeat,we just jump back on our feet.

We go one day to the next

not knowing what lies ahead -

To listening to what someone had once said

So we say don't give up or bend your knees

just shoot for your hopes

and your dreams.

Well, it at last came to and end. I love you guys, thanks for everything. Thanks alot.

Seeyou.

Perhaps, time really proves? Ily, .. im so confused/

2009-11-15T20:14:00.013+08:00

2012@JuscoCherasSelatan

Hey guys, anyone watched 2012 yet? I watched it :D Soso nice.

ShoppingSpree@ TheCurve

Woke up, really unhappy cuz quarreled with family last night. But mum asked me out for shopping. Yes i did, i said yes! So off we went to TheCurve, Ikano power centre. Bought 2 pair of shoes, and i somehow saw a 8tv host. I was staring at him and he stared back at me. Handsome! Awesome! jfnwjwfnwolefw, went to BubbaGum for lunch with mum. MARVELOUS!

Sorry guys, short post. Gotta go nao, byebye. :) Not going to sch tml. seeya.

You changed alotalotalot, not the last time you. I bet i still have feelings for you, taaaaata.

2009-11-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

又回到这个尽头我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾没有你分享我的感动
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我
不是你想看见的我
我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能教我勇敢

除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

♥ , i'll just give up. It's a tough decision. But you just seem to not love me, let me tell you. I love you very much, since i made the decision. I will try, at least try.

2009-11-08T17:40:00.019+08:00

BirthdayBarbeque@KengSeng's
It was Saturday yesterday. Went over to Kengseng's to celebrate his party tho it's a day earlier. It was hell boring when we first reached at 12 near 1 i think. Mum fetched Nie,Poh and Shaun. And then headed to Kengseng's. Lunched at kengseng's. Shaun cooked and he washed our bowls. He's a good husband i bet!

My bowl of korean noodle.

Nie&Poh's noodles.

We actually slept in his room for quite a while, played with his drum. And messied his room, evlbeans! Until YinLing came, she slept with us for a while too. Got too bored, went downstairs. JJ and OJK came, and due to overdue of boredom, i went to get apples and oranges. Asking whether they want to eat or not, they said okay. At first there were 3apples and 2oranges. After that they came behind. And i just don't kno why i asked them to take more fruits. And we started cutting, peeling. GUESS WHAT, WE MADE FRUIT SALAD! Forgot to take pictures, lol! When we're almost done, shen and guys came. Don't know why were they so obsessed with poker till someone can use vulgarities! I think KengSeng's grandpa was frightened, lmao. Okay played and played. Oooh we played scooters too. Was so excited with it, LOL. So me and Nie went out to play. Saw one huge dog, then stopped and turn back returning to his house!

After we finished barbequeing, it's the cake cutting session! We had a nice cake, i think it's strawberry cheese from SecretRecipe's

Went home after that. That's all. 2012 on thursday! Cant wait, still not sure whether im allowed to go watch or not.

Hoooopes, fake hopes. Hopes again? Another fake hope. Very tiring, yet i still love you. I still think of you, i will never let go of you, i will wait. Wait till the day you love me.

2009-11-01T16:46:00.003+08:00

Friendship is like a boat near the shore, the waves are just inevitable. They move and pull the boat away from the shore, but if you hold on with a rope, no matter how far you go, you still come back to the shore. Friends aren't perfect, they don't have to be. They make mistakes, they break hearts, but still we need them. The world is a lonely place without them. You don't need to keep your boat close to the shore, sail in the sea and be yourself. But come back to the shore every now and then. but Remember, we came to this world alone and ultimately we will die and leave this world alone.
I definitely will remember this, Mr.Ali.
Ps, dual posts today. Nothing to do.
Gotta go again naoooo. :) Bye.

2009-11-01T03:08:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, I studied with McD :D
Take a look,
Hahah!

Monday,26th. Exam was quite okay.
Tuesday, 27th. I forgot wad subject i took. Oh English. And er, wtfzxc? I forgot another one.
Wednesday, 28th. Math fucking pissed me off okay =( I did alot of careless mistakes. Went Pavilion at night.
Thursday, 29th. Ooooh 29th F2. Quite okay with science. Went Pavilion at night after school.
Friday,30th. Obviously last day, chinese and civics paper. I didn't study anyway. Stupid subjects :O Didn't manage to go to the hair salon, mum was not feeling well.

Oh, i went Pavilion for this. Mr.Baoz!

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Chilled after exam@ LeisureMall.

Woke up at 7.17 in the morning by mum. Washed up, prepared and headed to SgLong for breakfast. Had pork noodles with mum and her friend, felt like vomitting after eating. Geeeze. Poh smsed me halfway while i was eating, he said his dad rushing. I look at the time, wtf? U said 10am, it's only 9. So i scolded him, then i got scolded back. Cuz it's already 10! Idk which baboobaphile changed the time on my phone. It's one hour earlier, god damn it. In such a hastle, mum drove me to his house after finishing the food very fast, lol. Poh's dad fetched me, nie and Shaun. When we reached, we went to find Sf and Joanne. And then darren and Alwin reached. After that Lucas. Lunched at SushiKing.

Shaun's first time eating so much wasabi, he doesn't like it i think. He cried!

Me and Sf babe ate too, but not so much of Wasabi. I cried also ok, haha!

Ps guys, don't know how to rotate this video.

Shaun is mad, took my bag and act like a bitch. LOL! Headed to Neway after lunching.

Sorry guys, im not gona expose my fuckface right at this time okay!

Bro, dun emo. Cheer up.
After singing, we went to buy movie tickets. And then to LivingCabin, idk wad they bought. I just went in to see Stitch. Stich is so cute? O: While i was looking at something at LivingCabin. Alwin smsed and told me Jajaaaa they all came. They were at firework arcade. So i went to find them, hi-5ed with Jaa :) Ja, Shen, Loong, HoongMing. 4 of them if im not mistaken.

Shaun, you're a dead meat. We watch Pandorum cuz of him okay, jumped in the cinema like 5-6 times. So frightening. Middle to the end part is quite alright, just hugged together. Didn't jump, lol!

Alwin and Jo went back home early. After movies, went to LivingCabin again. We didn't see the "No camera" sign. So Sf babe took pic inside, and this bitch salesgirl came, and scolded her. Me and nie ran out laughing cuz she nv scold us. Sf babe argued with her, so fierce. LOL! Poh also scolded. And the girl said, " I dun quarrel with lil kids " Joker la hor! Ur hair gold then we scared? Poh called Shaun, he was watching PokerKing with jaja they all. Shaun came out. Me, Shaun and Lucas went in. I tot i was gona scold her but i didn't. Cuz actually she nv scold me LOL. Then the girl said, wad Timesquare this and that. I took my phone out, i look at her. She kept quiet. Cockface okay. Tsk! Then after Shen they all finished movie, he went in. He took pictures of the xmas tree, lmao. And then the girl came. " no pic allowed " Shen said he was trying his camera. Blablabla, lol. Then the third time, Loong, hoongming and shen went again. Idk wad happen lah, lol.
After watching movies, Shen decided to eat at Oldtown. But no more seats for us. Fullhouse. So we went to wongkok.

Poh, holding phone. Shen, Loong and HoongMing.

Shaun,Lucas and Ja.

Didn't take dao pics of Sf and Nie, they were beside me. Lmao. And then Poh''s dad came to fetch them. So Lucas's and me went to BR to find his parents. Back to Lucas's house.

And then I saw this small lil creature. TOY POODLEEEEE! Omfg cute ;x

Sorry dog lovers, i seriously don't know how to hold a puppy/dog! :(

Got on-line at his house, chatted with Nie, Poh and my cutie Qing. LOL! Cheer up okay, loveyou.

Si Lucas, dota freak! After 2 hours mum came to fetch at 11+ So late right, thanks and sorry!Funnnnn dayyyyyeeeee. (: Gotta go naooo, bye.

Loving you is so painful. But i still chose to love you, it is because I've never fall in love with someone like you before.

2009-10-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hey, exam's over. So nice right, no needa study like one mad cow anymore. Using lucas sister's comp to go online, lame right! Lucas is just beside me and i'm spamming his msn. LOL! His dog is sosososo hyper cuteeeeee. :O? Post another time, oh and went to Leisure today. Quite fun. :) Waiting for mum to fetch, she's so late. =(

2009-10-25T21:17:00.009+08:00

BAAAAAAAAAAAACK ! So so exhausted. Slept in the car while dad's driving home, so didn't manage to reply message. Sorry ! :\

- At the beach, pic credit to my bro.

- LOL, ?

- Urgh, messy hair :(

- Played with aunty's dog at her house, they were so cute.

- Kyuuute to the max !

- :)

I didn't take pictures of the seafood we had, we ate..

Shark meat! O: It's deli and tasty anyway. But first and second dish was kinda, ~~spicy~~.
I gotta buck up, revise for exam naoooooooooooo.
Seemingly gona suffer for the entire week )=
Goodluck all, for your exams :)
Byebye.

2009-10-25T00:01:00.004+08:00

- acting cute again.
I feel so disappointed, perhaps i'm not that important to you. Not an important friend..? I don't know. Im petty and wdv. But i am trying to change. At least i know how to try, at least?
Exam period is so fatiguing, im so lazy. Just got started with Sejarah tdy. Going to somewhere for seafood tomorrow with parents, their friends and bro's friends. Idk why are my bro's friends following anyway lol. Mum came to school to fetch me and sis to pavilion. I was so shocked. She was standing with suki's mum whn i was heading to the van. When i saw her i was like, is she my mum? Lmao, because she didn't tell me she wanted to fetch us from school the day earlier. So we got on the car and head to KL. I claimed that i wasn't feeling well and mum bought mixed guava and apple juice for me at pavilion. And of course, ate at Ichiban ramen. Then went to tangs for a lil shopping. Aft tht we went to buy those cream puffs and it'so ex -.- Then went home, was feeling sick. Bathe, ate medi, sms sms sms with him and when i was telling him my room got insect or smth like cockroach he asked me whether i want him to help squeeze it or not but i nv reply. I slept halfway. Cuz of the medi rofls. Oh then woke up today no one is at home, mum bought noodles for me but i've no appetite so i nv eat. Sms sms sms until abit hungry then went to eat. Then i started revising when i stop smsing ^.^
6th, im sorry. im sorry for everything i did..sorry. I hereby apologize for what i did. Don't feel sad because of me. It's not worth it to..not worth. We are friends, still. I will never forget you. Thanks for evertyhing. For making me happy, sadness never exist in our relationship. But, i think it's better for us to become friends. You'll find a better one, alot better than me.
-- I think, i don't know much about love. It's just so..unexpectable. Sigh.
Bb that's all. Have to sleep early still not feeling well. Morning call at 7 am by mum -.- ciao.
p.s i will not forget you 6th, never.

2009-10-11T04:04:00.004+08:00

No matter what, I love you 6th. Remember this, ♥

ACT CUTE LA HOR!

Fucked up Friday, really fucked up. Cried during Geography, So effing pissed, she said she wanna deduct 5 marks from my project cos i didn't complete it following the procedure or smth. I WASTED ALOT OF TIME DOING THE PROJECT, U SKANK. When it reached the last two period, which is English. Everything came so fucked up. FUCKED UP.

The intension of borrowing a book from Yen, i got scolding by this guy. Hey dude, DID I OWE U AT MY PAST LIFE? What i fucking did to you, is this wad u wanna treat me in return? It was very obvious i was just joking at that time, i said. " Bring it here la, " Come on, everybody knew i was just joking. Must you be that effing serious. Like as if i pissed your fucking butt off. What have i done to you. Maybe you're not in the mood. Well i can't see, cant be bothered. I don't care. And so you react like a fucking bastard after i said those words to you huh, WANNA ACT EXPENSIVE? U KNOW HOW FUCKING DISAPPOINTED I WAS AT THAT TIME, well at least i treat u as my goodfriend. And u do this in return. How cool? U KNOW I FELT LIKE CRYING AT THAT TIME, I WAS SO DAM EFFING DISAPPOINTED AND ANGRY. Let me tell you something, not every sorry u've said can get a "Nevermind, Oh it's alright" in return. And don't expect me to talk to u in the future. Im mean, but think, who is the one at first. U DON'T DESERVE A FORGIVENESS. And so i anyhow answered those question by Cecelia which she said those marks from the questions are counted in one of the projects for exam. If it's not for the exam i wouldn't do it, so i was the first to finish. " Nah, i finish liao " So Cecelia came and collect my book to mark. And hell, SHE SAID I GOT 36/50 BECAUSE I NEVER COMPLETE THE LAST QUESTION. 15 MARKS FOR THE LAST QUESTION, FOR HELL'S SAKE. THE QUESTION REQUIRE 3 REASON FROM BLAHBLAH STORY, AND I GAVE ONE. So effing pissed right?

Mum bought this bag i wanted desperately from the airport. I love it, but she didn't manage to find the perfume and nike's. So hm,
Oh, and a purple one, mum said she liked it so she's gona use it, not me although i like it more.
Longchamp Le pliage, tadaa (:

; How'd i wish i have a time machine, bringing back to the past and change everything. U don't wanna talk to me, just let it be. I wouldn't mind. I felt manipulated and insulted. I HATE YOU, don't ask me who. It doesn't relate to the incident i stated above. Well, maybe u knew something you shouldn't. But do you have to treat me like that? I didn't expect much from you. I just want everything to be like last time. We had fun together, no boundaries. But what happened lately, i'm not pretty sure. Maybe...
( Whoever see this don't ask me what happened and who is that, even you, 6th. I just wanna express my feelings on this blogpage. I FEEL SO STRESSED. I FEEL SO SAD, CONFUSED. USELESS, AM I? So please, don't ask me what and who. I don't feel like answering. Perhaps y'all think im emotional. Im just throwing everything out of my mind. I don't want depression, at this young age. Teeheh. Well, tears starting to flood my eyes. I might not... ) , i can't continue this anymore. Please, i beg. Don't ask me, please. Don't ever ask. Nie, thanks for everything. Bffl, ..

2009-10-05T03:11:00.006+08:00

*TAAAADAAA* New skin,no navs! No more complains ;)
I've been working out how to make a blogskin by myself. And tht was hard. Real hard. So i asked JF to help, and he taught me alot. He sent me link for tutorials and infos actually. Thanks for tolerating my dumbness and stupidity :D Very well, i didn't manage to make it. So JF gave me his codes, and i edited it very much :\ Kinda tired tho. So mainly this skin is plain. I think it's kinda messy. And i don't like the bottom border of my posts. WTFXSFBJSWK. I've no idea how to make it nicer :( My brain is empty now! Comment on my skin, ^_^! I accept positive and negative comments :D As i said in the previous post, im gona post those pics if im not mistaken, lazy to check :( And i have a short term memory. Well well, everyone knows. Always a sorry, :x it's too late now n im sleepy so not gona post, lolol! Bad excuse, whatever! Okay gotta go sleep, quite tired. Eyes half closing. Grats we have school tomorrow, government schl studs having their holidays from tommorow ! Idk which form,due to PMR. Feck this shyt, im so jealous ): Oh mum and dad aren't home for the whole week woohoo!

p.s Thanks baby for the porcupine u sent me, muahmuah ♥
6th!

2009-10-04T00:48:00.010+08:00

Hey,it was really a great day. I'll post tomorrow. Mum and dad flying to beijing later at 6am :D Mum promised me a school bag, and Le Feu D'Issey Light :x at the airport. Im tired. My legs are pain. Effing pain after bike riding :O Eff! Eff Eff! Btw took many pictures! Update tml ,nights :) ~~Oh and, i didn't manage to finish the contest thingy, so i decided not to continue doing it. I was sick for the whole effing week.~~

sfskjfksnflwsnlwqadnlkqawd,why cant i just stop using "eff" ? bahbahbah :S, so illmannered right :( I don't effing care! :D

,6th

2009-09-27T17:13:00.012+08:00

Hey guys, mid-autumn festival is coming :) And mum's gona make mooncakes for sure, she'd bought all the ingredients. And after the dinner one sat night next week, mum and dad's flying to Beijing. Im looking forward for tht night :D Still considering whether to organize a party or not.

:D Mooncakes.

The Mid-Autumn Festival, also known as the Moon Festival, or in Chinese, Zhongqiu Jie (traditional Chinese: 中秋節), is a popular harvest festival celebrated by Chinese people, Koreans, and Vietnamese people (even though they celebrate it differently), dating back over 3,000 years to moon worship in China's Shang Dynasty.[1][2] It was first called Zhongqiu Jie (literally "Mid-Autumn Festival") in the Zhou Dynasty.[3] In Malaysia, Singapore, and the Philippines, it is also sometimes referred to as the Lantern Festival or Mooncake Festival.
The Mid-Autumn Festival is held on the 15th day of the eighth month in the Chinese calendar, which is usually around late September or early October in the Gregorian calendar. It is a date that parallels the autumn and spring Equinoxes of the solar calendar, when the moon is supposedly at its fullest and roundest. The traditional food of this festival is the mooncake, of which there are many different varieties.
The Mid-Autumn Festival is one of the two most important holidays in the Chinese calendar, the other being the Chinese New Year, and is a legal holiday in several countries. Farmers celebrate the end of the summer harvesting season on this date. Traditionally, on this day, Chinese family members and friends will gather to admire the bright mid-autumn harvest moon, and eat moon cakes and pomeloes together. Accompanying the celebration, there are additional cultural or regional customs, such as:
-Eating moon cakes outside under the moon
-Putting pomelo rinds on one's head
-Carrying brightly lit lanterns, lighting lanterns on towers, floating sky lanterns
-Burning incense in reverence to deities including Chang'e (simplified Chinese: 嫦娥; traditional Chinese: 嫦娥; pinyin: cháng'é)
-Planting Mid-Autumn trees
-Collecting dandelion leaves and distributing them evenly among family members
-Fire Dragon Dances

I took these infos on wikipedia, :)

Alright guys, will MIA till next coming friday :) And i'll definitely complete the posts, :D && hand in to nuffnang. Hope i'll get qualified, :\. So guys, remember to visit nuffnang alot ! (: . Just click on the top of my blogpage, stated ads by nuffnang. I'll go on-line soon, cya around guys. Just started doing my geog project. Take care,

6th!

2009-09-27T09:52:00.006+08:00

Guys, which one do you think suits me better, Blogger or Wordpress ? If wordpress, i can create my own layout. But y'all have to relink ? Wad do you think ? Kindly post your comment at the tagboard thanks alot :) . Urgent.

Hey guys, currently trying out the competition on nuffnang, :d a lil lazy. But i'll complete th 1st post on 2nd oct as the dateline is 3rd. And th 2nd post i'll do abit later. Support okay(: loves. 2nd post needs votes ! So buddies, show me your love ! x) hoho.

2009-09-27T05:46:00.004+08:00

Both outing pictures:) Jusco`Sing k :D

I've been finkin' for quite a long time whether to post or not and finally a yes :\ 've been chatting with my new friend from Netherland, Mel :D.

Baby, this is for you :)
--`Pangya.

I was soso bored && so i went in to these lounges. And took screenshots. Cool aye :S Woke up at 2 this afternoon, ate noodle for my brilliant ~~brunch.~~ Urgh, not a very splendid day.

After my brunch, i went on-line and maple. I felt bored and i went to watch Tsunami, again. && guess what, i cried again :\. You guys shall watch it real soon ! After that mum came home around 6pm. Asked me to go bathe and go out for dinner. So i went quickly cuz i take long time bathing, usually :x It's such a hastle, i came out after 15minutes. Anyhow put shampoo :O. Went to starbucks with parents at night, cuz dad said he wanna drink coffee sudd. So we went. Just me,mom and him. I wanted to watch final destination 4, im way too slow ! But i wanna watch it still, die die also must watch :(. I'll ask dad to buy tomorrow. It's thrilling aye guys? I don't kno :

Final term examination is on 26th Oct, haven't started revising yet. I think it's too early, tsk! By right before th exam i will forget everything. ~~STM STM STM~~ . Im Miss-Short-Term-Memory D: I don't remember things really well, mum said this is because i behave like an Owl. Can you believe it, OWL? Yea i don't sleep at night, :x. But is that logical? Don't kno, maybe :\ I don't do research on these issues, time flies! Oh yea, my geography project isn't done yet. Psst, I haven't even started. Alright alright i'll get started tomorrow. Im so lazy right, ~~i suck to the core )=~~ tht's why 6th call me pigpig, :[ . School reopens on Monday. Hell, so freaking fast? Holiday just started last friday. It seems just like yesterday, ngaw. So boring nowdays, freaking boring. I wanna go sing k soon ! I miss singing with a bunch of monkeys :\ No offense. And the screamer! Mr. Sykuan you're on my post! Okay i'll end here. Too lazy to think of wad to post, lame huh F2.

Current area temperature : 26 ￮ ☾ , 5.26am :) I wrote this bcuz the time stated abv is hell not accurate, i've no idea why! Cyas, will write a lil tomorrow.

2009-09-26T00:14:00.001+08:00

Hey guys, i was really lazy to post ):
` Bitch-looking pics ! :D . Gao xiu !

Joke of the day,
- Jasmine tea .

Me,Nie and Qing jie went to gasoline. While waiting for our food. This two ~~dogs~~, they're couple. Came to sit next to us, then the boyf go pull the curtain over another side, and then Qing jie pulled it back over to cover herself. Cuz she claimed tht she's not gona eat with those indian dogs right. Then this ~~bitch~~, the girlf said, " so damn rude" with very much of indian accent. PCB ! So whatever hor. Then the pillow i was sitting on was a lil wet, so i went to another table to chg the pillow, then this bitch gime those fucking eyesight. I gave her back those eyesight too, ai pah lai la scared u ah. Then she said loudly, " act like a bitch " like as if i dunno english. Then i was like, " LOL! act like bitch? , then she wad ? Major bitch. Sore loser. Few mins later the ~~dog~~ couple went out cuz they were really pissed off by us ". They wud think, what kind of teenagers are like nowadays, no manners. I won't come this place ever again. Joker leh is u scold us 1st ! But u make us laugh for the whole day, dogs ! We laughed like shit okay. Thn we went to shopshopshop. Bought three tops and a pinkkkkkkkkkk bag. :) It's cute. Nie bought two tops and jie bought two also. While we reach i smsed him and ask him where is he, he said he's at famous amos' cookie place, i was at tht level too. I texted him and asked him to find me, he said he have to wait for loong. Until they went to TS gasoline themselves for lunch, and texted me tht they were at Gasoline also while we were eating in SW gasoline. Made me went outside and searched for them like thrice, at last he smsed me and said he's at TS gasoline. So fucking lame right. And asked me whether i wanna watch movie or not, at last they nv watch movie. Both went kbox. ~~SO LAME~~ U good luhs make me so sad ): Hais. We planned to take train at first, and then saw alot of ppl thr, so we went to take cab. RM70? You mother fucking ass, and then we bargained with the uncle, and he said okay RM50. Still alot right, he said. "Ooh jam la now, is this price liao de" Fuck you hard. Make me lose my precious $ which i was saving for another round of shopping. Geeze.

Jie bought this tee, and the printing on it is way too wrong for kids ! Dunkin' Donuts huh. And it's now Fuckin' Go Nuts. Shet this thing, real funny. Ooh :\ Sorry guys, i still have alot to post im way too lazy. Im getting lazier and lazier until im a total pig ): . So sorry !

`Yea so you really did. U did it, which i'd never expected you would do that. Maybe you think it's necessary. Until i was questioned. I didn't tell any lies. I hate you fucking alot. I knw every single thing u're thinking about me. And i don't mind. I fucking live my life for myself not for you.

6th.

2009-09-25T03:42:00.004+08:00

Image credit : My grandma :) She's not bad aye.

Matt says,
A girl is not an object.
She is not a place for you to throw all your ~~dreadfull sorrow~~ & later on you use & play her.
She is a pure soul that could change your life.
If you just know what a girl wants & needs.
A girl is not a place for you to tell ~~lies~~, telling her she meant the world for you but not keeping your words.
Don't tell a girl you love her if you cant love her forever.

(Which this is very right,)

Credits : Matthew.

Tell me i don't deserve anything, and i'll quit everything real instance. We come to earth with nothing, still we go with nothing.

Out wit babe tml ` destressing myself. Shall escape from darkness to a better place, don't wanna suffer anymore. I give up on everything. Might as well exclude my studies. Tht's my future. Ain't gona ruin it for some kind of shets. Let me tell you girls, we must learn to speak up before everything is too late:) Hey, i have alot to post but im running out of time,geeze.

6th(:

ily,6th.

(empty)

2009-09-23T05:50:00.000+08:00

life's filled with sadness and sorrow.

♥

2009-09-13T18:13:00.000+08:00

Life's been really hectic lately, really. Everything grew out of expectations. Life's so crazy. Hey , i'll change my blogskin next week. I was damn pissed off. I've been editing a skin from 2pm until just now which is 6pm,total about 4hours. Geez, 4 fucking hours sitting in front of comp. And it turned out like shyt when i clicked view blog after saving it. Exactly SHITTY. Peoples have problem viewing my blog with Internet Explorer other than mozilla or opera or etc. So whatever right,god damn it. (hits table hard) Im turning insane, very soon! Hardly see me posting aye, guys? I was too lazy. This post is specially for him!

060909, ilyvm bhwfdarling ! :D
ilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyily ♥ everything is because of you ! :)

He called me a cow , hah ! :D

2009-08-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

Okay , hm . Ladies and gentleman :) I'll start my post with something exhilarating hah ! Don't stop reading okay , :D it'll be very interesting . Stop if you hate Science and Mathematics :\
Anna is a 15 year old girl , she grows taller slightly slower than the others . Ngaww ); sad case huh . She's about 150cm tall . So guys , in a very silly way , how tall she grow each and every year from 0 - 15 ? :D Yes Ali you're right ! She grows 10cm every year . 150cm / 15 = 10cm . This is a growth process of a 15 year old girl tht we know . Give me a round of applause please people :3 , and credits to me !

- :) it's just a picture , don't take it so seriously humans .

Hmm , indeed a boring day today . Bought cash in maple and changed my hair , oh finally . Irksome and exasperating desperation , almost everyone said Rose is nice but i'd always don't think so . I didn't know why i changed it in the first place either . Joker me huh x; bahaha . Oh , blahblah asked me to see some pictures , she named it wait , fatty when she saved it at that time . LAWLL-NESS okay , oh lord . I will lose my apetite for like , 3days ? Oh please , ! Okay fine , i shall stop my exaggerations . But it's true D; trust me , you will have some sort of atrocious feeling after seeing . Hah ! Okay once more , stop fooling around xuaniie !
Oh fine ); Kay tht's all .

* you don't even seem to give a fuck .
* i regretted .
* no way back ?
* ah whatever it is i don't care too .
im missing you already boy , D; School reopen please ! Quick ):

-- my current wish , : school reopens faster ! <3 wanna see u badly .

Loveees .

2009-08-22T01:15:00.000+08:00

Craving for food again in the middle of the night , lol . Went downstairs , had some cheesecake and pizza . I felt overweight , hah :\ . I went to school today for some stupid reason , i should've stay at home okay . Everyone felt so weird why i came to school , " Oh xuan why did u come ! I tot u will absent " Rofl , this is caused by a major reason can , i will skip school like 2days in a week ! Pity the class , no more noise . Laughs :D Went to school for nothing lately , take pictures and running around is what me and babes do . I hate POL ! I hate BM ! I hate KH !
I finally accomplished the cooking test on wednesday haha :) , with nie . Thanks , u helped me alot muacks !

- Ingredients .

- Tadaa ! Heh .

Ooh ,

- Science period . Teacher scolded us both like dunno what ass after lesson , " Hey ks why did u switch ur place and sit over to xuan's place . U both will talk blahblah . "

We were taking pictures during KH , teacher was absent , HOORAYS !

- love my babes :D muacksmuacks .

- love this v much !

- muacksmuacks bffl ! <3

Went tuition on Wednesday , omg Ms. Cheryl's new chi hua hua aftr Rosco ran away from home , this new puppy named Ro ! Effing cute , me and vanessa played with the puppy for a while after class .

-Ro .

I can feel my heart beating fast when you're approaching me . I didn't know what you wanna tell me , as we don't know each other until your fren somehow pulled you away for some friendly fight , laughs . I went to school and you didn't seem to appear .

ilyvm .

Sunday .

2009-08-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

Oooo . Went to midvalley today . noon till night . just reach home, 9.46pm :D

- Chilli's

- :)

- Menuuu.

- Tequila-lime fish steak. Yum ! Give it a try :D

Done eating . Walked over to Gardens . Bought 2 tees from Springfield and a pair of shoes from Robinsons . Mum said i'm seriously a shopaholic . " What about you ? :D " She laughed and said fine we're both the same . Aftr tht accompanied mum to shop awhile . She bought two pair of shoes from nine west . Hah ! :\ Major shopaholic ! We then walked back to Midvalley , went to metrojaya . Bought new concealer from Benefit's . And then to Dome for latte .

` Horrified seeing ur message._. I don't know wad to reply . D;
Sorry if i hurt you , sigh .

Can you feel the sorrow ?

2009-08-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

Why ? It's so all unfair to me . Life is just so purposeless . My mind is so vacuous . U shouldn't have asked me for stead if u intend to hurt me . Im stupid , to believe what others said . I felt so dispirited , disheartened . Is this wad i fucking get loving a person ? Stop asking me how am i , u don't deserve an answer . Don't anticipate either .

Some pics for you guys :)

- :)

- They made me smile .

- ;d hah !

<3:) Hah love my babes . Friends , thanks . Love you guys alot . Thanks for helping and caring . Thanks for being there when im down :)

When i see you , i run out of words to say .

2009-07-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

- The party .
Yesterday's party was so fatiguing yet it's fun :) Woke up at 11o'clock and asked dad to fetch me to kp's house . Frens were waiting outside to help me take those meat and chicken in . Special thanks to them .
Unlucky day i supposed . Had scars all over my body . Fuck it okay .

- Ugly hand :(
Fuck fuck fuck . Screw you ,straightener . I was in a rush doing my hair . And just this straightener was displeased with me . I threw it onto the floor and stepped it hard . Laughs .
And then dad asked me to make everything faster . I did , and i was trying to .
Reached home at 12 am aftr sending Alex home . I was aghast looking at my toes . Stunned for a while . And i was like , what the fuck o_o

- Frightening .
I ran chasing , him on the road when we were playing ice and water . At last i caught him . Still worth it :D I don't think so now .
I ran downstairs to my grandad . He was half asleep . I shook him and showed him my toes . He applied medi on my leg . And it's better today . Thanks i love you :)
Sighs , Baby what happened ? 7months13days .
It's the end ?
Sorry friends . Quick post today . Gotta go :) Buhbyes . Loves .
Xuaniie

Exhilarating Saturday :D

2009-07-05T18:49:00.000+08:00

Mum shook and woke me up at 830 in the morning . Got everything ready . Mum fetched sister to violin class and then headed to nie's house . Aftr that we went to eat breakfast . " I bet we will see Sunny and his family at the restaurant " Mum and me saw him everytime we eat there on Saturday morning . Reach there within 10minutes and guess wad . We saw them ! I felt so assuaged . Then,mum went to sg.Long again . Bought fruits at the morning market and breakfast for dad in the food court . She asked me to msg dad aftr tht . I did so . And dad replied " I makan already " I told mum instaneously . She complained a lil and then subdued . Went to fetch sister from violin class and she claimed tht teacher scolded her cuz she doesn't know how to do the theory . I laughed . Then , mum fetched us to the train station . Ktm-ed to BTS , and then lrt-ed to HT . While standing in the LRT , we saw two teenagers offering their seat to a mum holding her child . Cute ! :D Nie got so agitated on the LRT . Let's not talk about this . We reached HangTuah . Walked to TS and we shopped for a while . We walked around , saw few cute bags . But aftr thinking , we didn't buy it . Cuz i prefer bigger one actually . Xiong sms-ed . I can read his mind . " Can't you both go any faster ? Stop wasting my time " But he didn't expose tht out . Or else i'll tear off his skin ! We walked over to SW . We were looking for a bag . Nie said she needed a bag . Went all over SW . Even 6th floor . But our search turned no result . Fuck it . So we walked to Pavilion . Sms-ed xiong . And then we met him at the cinema place . Oh mama,hell alot of people queue-ing for movie tix . Transformers or ice age i don't know . Oh and we saw yuyu thr . Said hi to her . We flee the " oh my goodness " scene and went to have sushi for lunch as Nie needs a PROPER LUNCH . Xiong was like . Nono i dowan to eat . Acting emo there . Sms with me when he was in front of me . 1st msg . " You wan to die " I was like . Wtf cant you just talk . We decided to go TS and have a look . Cuz i think there will be lesser ppl there but fuck no . It's the same okay . Damn it . So we went to Neway . Arnd 330pm . Booked a room from 4-7 . Went in and singsingsing . And we saw smth on the menu . Interesting :D

Nice huh ? We were laughing our ass off when we saw this stupid thing . Mum called . She told us to go to Pavilion . They were at Coffee Bean . We went there , said bye to xiong . And sat down there with mum , dad and sister . Mum said she bought nothing . She told me she wanna go Prada and Tangs for bag and shoes . But ended up she bought nothing . She was already holding a Prada bag . And she wanted one more . Thank god she didn't see any bag tht she fancied . Or else dad have to " headache " again . Shoes ? " I saw one i like but thr's no suitable size for me . Cuz she have a size3 foot . :x Okay . Shared the coffee with sister and dad . And then walked out of Pavilion to Lot 10 . And we saw some celebration outside pavilion .

We saw the chiobu in black costume :D And then we went for dinner . Sent Nie home . Exhausted yet we had lotsa fun x) Oh and , my new look aftr 2weeks suffering from fuglyness . This is better .

Loves :) Monday,7th month =)
♥ A .

So cold .

2009-06-28T07:40:00.000+08:00

It is indeed a very cold morning. Truly apologize tht i didn't manage to reply your message(s). I was sitting in my room mapling profusely,a very usual habit. Wondering if it is raining or not. Didn't know why, i love hearing those raindrops dropping uniformly. Giving me a feeling of comfort. It's weird. No one's perfect in this bigbig world. God's creation. God made us imperfect. I was thinking of the reason why for the whole night. Looked out the window for a long while. Like as if am emo-ing. But i wasn't. I treasured those moments with you, i love you. But tonight i feel weird. Am i, thinking too much ? Please say yes. No. Wait. What the fuck is my problem? Nevermind. I dnt have the mood. I haven't quite figured out wad i wanted to do. This is so tiring. In all appearance, this seems like. Im often irritated,agitated or somehow stressed-out by those stupid questions in my mind. It is so absurdly senseless. See,i can live my live to the fullest. Why must i neglect myself. Or in another way,adding on more and more pressure. Funny. My virginity,1st time of my nice name being written down in the discipline paper during exam. Regretted and distressed ohmygoodness. I've done such sluggish,doltish,dumb,worthless,unavailing and brainless thing. I feel so useless. Fuck it. So petrified. Tomorrow. I've to face it. Break out? Escape? No way. Hope my dad doesn't find out wad happened. <3 you :) Byeall write soon. To be concerned or solicitous,take very good care guys. Swine flu is spreading very seriously. Toodles.

CRAZY .

2009-06-21T02:54:00.000+08:00

Guess what . " I wan chiong study alr (On friday) . Sat and sun i wan study alr . " Wtfs ._. Ended up mapling for 14hours . Wait , It's 2.56am . 15hours from 12pm in the afternoon . Was craving for food badly , as usual . I went downstairs , lord . No more food . I wasn't really feeling happy today . Im jealous , im jealous , im jealous . So wad . I don't expect anyth from you ok . Gogo get her :) Goodluck . I don't know what am i thinking ? -_- Gosh it's so confusing . I dnt wanna think . I watched a 1hr30mins show o.o guild fighting with dogs . Best friend , excluding you alright . miissChUbBz is so fugly right now ._. I bought my first legendary tic from kengseng , 19.5 m which is very much for me at tht moment .

Hah jokes . I guess you're laughing . I have no luck risking on random hairstyles . Fuck it .

Magez , thanks alot for tolerating my nice look ._. U're good enuff for even not insulting but just asking . " U go random hair ah ? " ; " No it's legendary " - " Oh doesn't look legendary at all " . Nvm :( Btw , i wanted to chg to rose . But i saw two person chging to tht already ( I detest them ) . So im still thinking whether to chg . Or caspia ? Radea ? Diva ? Angelica ? Damn . I dont wanna swear . The hairstyle make me do so . Damn it . It's so ugly .

Funny couples > over there . One bear :D one twinnie :) I look weird :O but this is much more better-looking than miissChUbBz :b Seriously fugly ._.

ALAN , im sorry ♥ Dui bu qi D: Goodluck .

It's father's day :O Omgomg what should i do . Father's , often viewed as the cornerstone of the family . Whenever he barked orders , i tremble and obey without question . I know I'm sometimes rebelious and playful . But i promised myself , i promised you . Tht im not gona become some useless rubbish :D I love you although u have massive mood swings . Whatever . USED TO IT :) Happy father's day dad . Whyknee ah !

Yours sincerely ,

xuan .

To my dad , lovehatredx . Happy daddy day :D huhuhhhs :) U 're the best emotion management consultant ever ! Love yous dad ,goodluck in everything .

MAY GOD BLESS TWO OF MY FATHERS WITH SPLENDID HEALTH AND WEALTH :D BEST OF LUCK IN EVERYTHING AND NEVER FORGET A GOOD DAUGHTER LIKE ME ! BAHH , WTF IS THIS .

Lmfao . Okayye . Gotta go back maple . Cya all . Monday exam :D Cya next weekend .

:( Sadded !

2009-06-14T19:16:00.000+08:00

[Notice] miissChUbBz will be MIA for 2 weeks until 27th june. So don't miss her :D ; " Whatever,who wants to miss you " Kegeke,if you have tht thinking. U btr get out of my blog right now :) Someone said im good in seducing. Wait i actually forgot who o.o Laughs. What the fuck are you talking about. I was so dammn hot angry :O Until he said , " Joking ". Oh joking la. Then i started vulgarities at him. Until he said sorry. And oh yes,FruitySweet. Please make yourself clear. The item is TattoArtist's and you looted his. So u somehow said we're scammer when u dropped it in the free market? Come om,droppped items are FFA . ( Free for all ) Whatever you say or do,ur problem k. Dun come guai lan me. Fack your arse. Nevermind , chilled. So,last day of 2 weeks holiday. OhMyGawdzxzx time passes so fast. I'll start doing revision tomorrow. Or mayb will go on-line next weekend for a while or smth. Alan,you somehow dao-ed me. Ben wifey,idk wad's going on. Our love is fading apart ! Everyone treated me so cold today. Okay gotta go all. Bye. Cyas

Wifey aka ben,i knw it is hard to find the thing u wished for.

2009-06-13T13:33:00.001+08:00

It's so called true love. Wifey,true love do exist. It is whether for you to believe it or not. I know you don't. But you will soon,trust me :) As stated in my macro, LoveIsNeverTrue. Tht's my virtue,after all i still couldn't let go baby. Wifey,maybe i said the wrong thing to you. Given you fake hopes. Perhaps you don't think like this. Oh well,i have wrong thoughts. Sorry,ilyvm ben wifey. I still love him alot,as i told everyone. He's my pillar of strength. Cant breathe without him. Oh fine,shudn't say this. Sad case,i quarelled with my daddy. John dad,sorry i may be too harsh on you. Or maybe i just did,last morning at 4am. I dnt feel nice saying those disrespectful words to you. Capsing etc etc. I still remember what you've said to me tht night. Cry a river,build a bridge. Get over it. Thanks alot. But i don't wish to ignore you anymore. And i don't wish u would too. So after you see this,puhh-wease D: Talk to me ! Dear friends,the enthusiasm in you in inspiring me always and it will always be. I love you guys.

Thanks so much for being with me :) Loves.
ps . JOHN DADDY IM SORRY. Sorry for being so rude. Sorry for those inconsideration. So so sorry.
Ily dear :D
Nehnehpok is cute ! <3>

How could i even ABANDON my books ! Nevermind i'll revision next week :d Perhaps too late.Better than nothing. LMFAO ! New char ign : xChubbs n xWHYKNEE :\ I know it's not tht special like loveofp4in or vvOsh1h3r0 or QinDynastyZ. But mine is alright. Slacker type ign :D huhus. Laugh die me ! Okay gotta go.

Sighs D:

2009-06-02T16:01:00.000+08:00

I thought i wast going to fall into pieces. I couldnt hold a proper face. My mind was blank and my heart dropped and rolled on the floor. My uncle was admitted to the hospital last 2 weeks. He hasn't wake up yet. God bless you. Thanks so much for everything you did to us before. Wake up soon. Bring me to your resort. Please don't leave us,don't leave your family. They still need you alot. I just don't know what to do besides immersing myself into online games. Im so dead ! Im trying so hard stopping myself to think whatever i shouldn't. Hart you alot baby <3 GOD DAMNED INTERNET CMI,again. Oh fack it man zxzx. Okay gotta go ^^ Chatting with my beloved.

Narcissist.

2009-05-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

I called myself a narcissist. WHAT? OhMyGawdzxzx. Why do I have that thinking?
I seriously don't know. Someone tempt me to blog ! Shh :D
I felt so distraught or so called very anxious D:
I've been starting my brand new habit of sleeping 2 hours daily since wednesday.
As im not accesed to play so long a day ! It's maple,oh man :( God damn maple.
I became a freak / maniac cos of you. Baah whatever. I enjoy myself anw. I cant bring myself to study. Oh lord,why not? Exam is near. :O One more pressure heaped on another one. " I feel so useless and stupid " Why can't I just focus studying. Oh well,gotta go. Mum's spurring me to study. Actually not,M A P L E :) Toodles
Love you <3

Aiks ):

2009-04-26T04:23:00.001+08:00

Hey there,long time din upload blog ler' In cc now,about 4am+ Oh gosh so cold. School's alright. I still love him much.

5th month soon :D
Muuacks.
See ya guys.
I dnt reli like blogging.
Lmao.
Toodles.
<3 GY :b

HOLIDAYS.

2008-12-17T17:25:00.001+08:00

So bored.
Hmm.
Im spending my time at home mapling profusely.
Lawl.
Not much things happened recently.
Oh yes.
It's about the class.
Im in 2vision
FUCK YES. Not beside the toilet (:
But i think im changing to Charity to be with Nie ! :) Muahmuah.

2008-11-12T14:00:00.001+08:00

Omg.
Tiredness and fatigue.
Exam period is so tiring ):
And it ended.
"Stop complainin',xuan"
Stopped complainin'
I haven't been mapling for 2weeks.
Even more than that i guess.
Heck care ._.
Uh ya.
It's wednesday today.
Im absent :O
Shud be having rehearsal/practise at hall.

That's all bye.

It's a fun fun day.

2008-10-03T00:53:00.001+08:00

I had my hair rebond-ed.
My hair trimmed into layers.
Sorta kewl.
Had a great day with munchy and kath,etc etc
And yea.
About two weeks later i'll haf my hair highlighted (;

And yea.
Happy belated birthday to nie, bffl !

IMU so much.
Sorry i didn't attend the surprise party.

2008-09-19T19:11:00.001+08:00